Stabbing my heart with an axe until i die

[FriendDeath]

This is what it has come to, ill bleed alot but i dont care, as long as im dead sure

 

[DeadNotSleeping]

I would seriously recommend against this.

 

[FriendDeath]

I would seriously recommend against this.

Then what else can i do to atleast feel better?

 

[shinigami_1992]

This is absolutely wrong and not realistic idea.

Physically you are not going to be able to do it X there is going to be massive fear X psychological block aspect out of pain fear.

In the worst case scenario, you will cause yourself some NON lethal serious damage and lifetime health issues.

What are your reasons for wanting to die? Age?

Are you just hopeless, hurt inside, somebody hurt you, or you have any money X legal X health or other life issues?

Paradoxically to what some ppl say, THIS FORUM is NOT pro suicide. This forum is open talk X support forum where I personally feel more safe than with NHS or any shrinks to talk about what ppl have done to me that wants to make me die-where is not mental illness or internal want to die, is just harm and suffering and extensive life losses of various sorts ppl caused me.

Then what else can i do to atleast feel better?

First, start telling us why you want to die. You will find it very cleansing your soul X head X emotionally freeing when you will start to talk to us about what you feel and what is going inside of you

 

[Rudi]

I genuinely recommend HIGHLY against this.

 

[FriendDeath]

This is absolutely wrong and not realistic idea.

Physically you are not going to be able to do it X there is going to be massive fear X psychological block aspect out of pain fear.

In the worst case scenario, you will cause yourself some NON lethal serious damage and lifetime health issues.

What are your reasons for wanting to die? Age?

Are you just hopeless, hurt inside, somebody hurt you, or you have any money X legal X health or other life issues?

Paradoxically to what some ppl say, THIS FORUM is NOT pro suicide. This forum is open talk X support forum where I personally feel more safe than with NHS or any shrinks to talk about what ppl have done to me that wants to make me die-where is not mental illness or internal want to die, is just harm and suffering and extensive life losses of various sorts ppl caused me.

First, start telling us why you want to die. You will find it very cleansing your soul X head X emotionally freeing when you will start to talk to us about what you feel and what is going inside of you

Family mentally abusing me nonstop, i have a whole era missing from my life due to a coma induced by school bullying, my early teen days and im trying to age regress to recover it

 

[shinigami_1992]

Perks of telling us are, that you can stay anonymous and nobody will harshly judge you unless some fake trolls come along so STAY STRONG.

You can say anything you feel and why. Nobody will preach you, judge you or tell you to feel otherwise.

 

[FriendDeath]

Perks of telling us are, that you can stay anonymous and nobody will harshly judge you unless some fake trolls come along so STAY STRONG.

You can say anything you feel and why. Nobody will preach you, judge you or tell you to feel otherwise.

What can i do just now to feel better, atleast to escape myself, and feel like something else

 

[Rudi]

Family mentally abusing me nonstop, i have a whole era missing from my life due to a coma induced by school bullying, my early teen days and im trying to age regress to recover it

I get that sucks, but trying to stab your heart with an axe DEFINITELY ISN'T better than that, trust me.

Do you maybe wanna talk to one of us about it instead of doing something like that? I believe that'd be more helpful.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

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[FriendDeath]

I get that sucks, but trying to stab your heart with an axe DEFINITELY ISN'T better than that, trust me.

Do you maybe wanna talk to one of us about it instead of doing something like that? I believe that'd be more helpful.

Sure, i guess, but uhh right now kinda needing to embody the personality i gave to the era im missing here, how do i do that

 

[shinigami_1992]

Family mentally abusing me nonstop, i have a whole era missing from my life due to a coma induced by school bullying, my early teen days and im trying to age regress to recover it

Right. I hear and acknowledge you. I am so sorry to hear that. But I can help you navigate thru those feelings

Could you tell me your age X where you from, country at least? It will just help me give you best information X resources of self help so you can make best decisions for self in presence and future.

 

[FriendDeath]

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Please, nows not the moment, im in a huge crisis here

Right. I hear and acknowledge you. I am so sorry to hear that. But I can help you navigate thru those feelings

Could you tell me your age X where you from, country at least? It will just help me give you best information X resources of self help so you can make best decisions for self in presence and future.

Male (trans), 22, from Spain

 

[shinigami_1992]

What can i do just now to feel better, atleast to escape myself, and feel like something else

Stay with us. Can you access netflix to distract yourself? Do you have headphones to blast some favourite music?

I can send you few links to motivational talks that helped me thru my lowest on YouTube. Give me second

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Please, nows not the moment, im in a huge crisis here

I'm not trying to be funny. That's possibly the dumbest method you could possibly opt for.

 

[Rudi]

Sure, i guess, but uhh right now kinda needing to embody the personality i gave to the era im missing here, how do i do that

by maybe distracting yourself with something. anything that you think can get you out of reality for atleast a while. and that without hurting yourself, maybe.

You can try a bunch of stuff, even the smallest things. I don't know if you like reading but even that could be a distraction.
You could also draw your current emotions out! It doesn't matter if the drawing will look good or not, as long as you manage to let your feelings out by doing so.

 

[FriendDeath]

Stay with us. Can you access netflix to distract yourself? Do you have headphones to blast some favourite music?

I can send you few links to motivational talks that helped me thru my lowest on YouTube. Give me second

I dont have headphones, but yea i do have a playlist full of stuff from the 2000s, including scenecore stuff and such

 

[hearball]

if you can get a fucing axe , i am sure you can get a rope and go hanging method which is generally accepted more secure and less painfull .

 

[FriendDeath]

by maybe distracting yourself with something. anything that you think can get you out of reality for atleast a while. and that without hurting yourself, maybe.

You can try a bunch of stuff, even the smallest things. I don't know if you like reading but even that could be a distraction.
You could also draw your current emotions out! It doesn't matter if the drawing will look good or not, as long as you manage to let your feelings out by doing so.

Ill try drawing maybe

if you can get a fucing axe , i am sure you can get a rope and go hanging method which is generally accepted more secure and less painfull .

I did try, however was rescued, my room has no lock

 

[Rudi]

if you can get a fucing axe , i am sure you can get a rope and go hanging method which is generally accepted more secure and less painfull .

i know were on a suicide forum but this is NOT helpful right now if you've read the replies to this.

 

[shinigami_1992]

Please, nows not the moment, im in a huge crisis here

Male (trans), 22, from Spain

So what family is doing to you? Who those ppl are? Is it physical X sexual X financial extortion or PSYCHOLOGICAL and verbal abuse?

 

[Rudi]

Ill try drawing maybe

I did try, however was rescued, my room has no lock

Yeah, try drawing while listening to music maybe! Both are an awesome and usually very helpful mix <3

 

[FriendDeath]

So what family is doing to you? Who those ppl are? Is it physical X sexual X financial extortion or PSYCHOLOGICAL and verbal abuse

So what family is doing to you? Who those ppl are? Is it physical X sexual X financial extortion or PSYCHOLOGICAL and verbal abuse?

Sorry if double quoted i panicked there, its psychological and verbal abuse

Yeah, try drawing while listening to music maybe! Both are an awesome and usually very helpful mix <3

What to draw tho

 

[hearball]

Ill try drawing maybe

I did try, however was rescued, my room has no lock

oh . thats sad .

 

[FriendDeath]

i know were on a suicide forum but this is NOT helpful right now if you've read the replies to this.

Understood

oh . thats sad .

Yeah i know, its awful

 

[shinigami_1992]

Okay. Give me 5-10minutes and I will post YT links

If you can afford, try to get some cheap headphones. Music helped me thru a lot and the louder I blast it(with full awareness about hearing damage risks) the better I feel

 

[gummyshark]

This is what it has come to, ill bleed alot but i dont care, as long as im dead sure

very gruesome choice, you would only suffer instead of dying. I hope you find a better way and find peace. Good luck !

 

[FriendDeath]

Okay. Give me 5-10minutes and I will post YT links

If you can afford, try to get some cheap headphones. Music helped me thru a lot and the louder I blast it(with full awareness about hearing damage risks) the better I feel

I do have a playlist but thanks anyways, anyways how do i physically embody the era im missing? It will inmerse me more in this escape

 

[hearball]

i know were on a suicide forum but this is NOT helpful right now if you've read the replies to this.

if i could read , i would not have been on this in the first place .

 

[FriendDeath]

very gruesome choice, you would only suffer instead of dying. I hope you find a better way and find peace. Good luck !

Thanks