Venting spreading your wings

[princeseadove]

I find myself so exhausted these days, but at the same time not at all. Just so much hurt, like I am being stabbed, and allowed a break, and than stabbed again and again. It's a nonsensical way of describing how I feel, but it's how I feel. I find myself thinking what it means to spread my wings. I'm stuck in a very abusive household, with no where to go, and I just imagine myself free. Somehow in some way. To me spreading my wings, having peace, is either freedom, death, or success. I have so many idea, what I want to do, what I want to achieve. But I need freedom. I need to get out of here. But even than, I don't think I'll ever be able to recover. I truly, truly hate myself. But I at least, want to give myself some peace.

 

[Cinno]

I feel you. I'm in a similar situation and it's just so frustrating.

 

[princeseadove]

I feel you. I'm in a similar situation and it's just so frustrating.

It is, every week its the same thing, I don't know how long I can take this

 

[Hazrakaht]

"Just so much hurt, like I am being stabbed, and allowed a break, and than stabbed again and again."

I don't think this is nonsensical at all to be honest. It's how I've felt my whole life. Sadly you can't bleed out from it like you could if you were really stabbed. At this point I'd be long gone if you could..

 

[princeseadove]

"Just so much hurt, like I am being stabbed, and allowed a break, and than stabbed again and again."

I don't think this is nonsensical at all to be honest. It's how I've felt my whole life. Sadly you can't bleed out from it like you could if you were really stabbed. At this point I'd be long gone if you could..

You can't, and it just becomes inconvenient and people just don't understand