Sources to motivate my CTB journey

[frap791]

Hi all, I have been in a spiraling void for many years where there is a similar pattern in my life. I am at the beginning of my journey down once again and I see where this is going. Therefore, I think it will be an unnecessary fight which I will ultimately lose and I need to speed up this to the end.

So I am looking for any kind of media, text, stories to convince myself to stop fighting and find the courage to act.

I hope I could make myself clear, peace to you all.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

You pprobably not find that here. Encouraging is against the forum rules. When you're really ready and the pain of living is bigger than the pain of dying then you will find a way to overcome your SI. I hope you find peace,

 

[frap791]

You pprobably not find that here. Encouraging is against the forum rules. When you're really ready and the pain of living is bigger than the pain of dying then you will find a way to overcome your SI. I hope you find peace,

How did you come to that point where the pain of living is greater?

 

[Praestat_Mori]

How did you come to that point where the pain of living is greater?

Obviously I have not reached that point yet. Otherwise I wouldn't here. Well I was very close to CTB ready with my method (CO) when I registered here and I'm still stuck here. Part of me wants to die bc it'd be so much better but another part of me still stops me.

Being hopeless, being in dispair, seeing no future, but currently it's not enough for me to really attempt.

 

[foxgirl]

It's extremely wrong to encourage/push someone to CTB. No one here would never suggest you end your own life, instead we can only understand your decision and wish you peace. I'm sorry life is so fucked up.

 

[imrantahir1208]

This I think maybe if put in another way is to reduce one's SI. Sources for this would in fact be helpful to the rest of the users on this forum

 

[IWishToDie]

If it's that bad, the story of your own life should be enough fuel.