impulsive creature
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- Jun 18, 2026
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I have no idea why exactly I am doing this post, I never had the communication desire other people had, but whatever. See this thread as an introduction of the person of mine and I apologize of any incoherent ramblings and spelling errors you will have to experience in the next XY lines, I am quite drunk at this very moment.
I am currently 22 years old, male, have a visible physical disability, diagnosis for MDD, ADD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder and If I had to guess Autism (but who doesn't in the year of 2K26, hihihi ^^), and I am currently contemplating to off myself within the next 4 weeks due to the fact that I cannot bear the thought of existing within the next.. let's say 50 years.
While a lot of suicides ( I am saying this whilst only having researched a bit and prejudices are also present in my head) occur due to temporary circumstances, I see my suicide as a relief for society and myself for a larger scale. I don't have the craving of contributing to society, nor am I able to feel any genuine connection to other people. I have no sexual desire, I couldn't care less about social status, no ambitions.. everything that was supposed to make one human isn't present in me, I really am not able to do something as fundamentally as communicating with others in extend and upholding a relationship, nor romantically and platonic.
I don't feel sad, low-spirited, depressed or whatever. I know that I feel SOMETHING, but I'm not sure what, I'm not sure whether it is positive, negative or whatever, but there's this desire for the void, all I know is that what is awaiting me is a boring, lonely and regular life.
I'm using my currecnt 2 week sick leave to plan my suicide which I'll hopefully achieve with the help of Heroin, Alprazolam, Alcohol, Escitalopram and GBL. I'll be leaving for the first time in a while the idyllic southern part of Germany for an other part of Europe, which I'll still have to choose, I'm choosing the perfect words for my goodbye letter..
Whatever, do with this information as you please, carpe diem or something. :)
I am currently 22 years old, male, have a visible physical disability, diagnosis for MDD, ADD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder and If I had to guess Autism (but who doesn't in the year of 2K26, hihihi ^^), and I am currently contemplating to off myself within the next 4 weeks due to the fact that I cannot bear the thought of existing within the next.. let's say 50 years.
While a lot of suicides ( I am saying this whilst only having researched a bit and prejudices are also present in my head) occur due to temporary circumstances, I see my suicide as a relief for society and myself for a larger scale. I don't have the craving of contributing to society, nor am I able to feel any genuine connection to other people. I have no sexual desire, I couldn't care less about social status, no ambitions.. everything that was supposed to make one human isn't present in me, I really am not able to do something as fundamentally as communicating with others in extend and upholding a relationship, nor romantically and platonic.
I don't feel sad, low-spirited, depressed or whatever. I know that I feel SOMETHING, but I'm not sure what, I'm not sure whether it is positive, negative or whatever, but there's this desire for the void, all I know is that what is awaiting me is a boring, lonely and regular life.
I'm using my currecnt 2 week sick leave to plan my suicide which I'll hopefully achieve with the help of Heroin, Alprazolam, Alcohol, Escitalopram and GBL. I'll be leaving for the first time in a while the idyllic southern part of Germany for an other part of Europe, which I'll still have to choose, I'm choosing the perfect words for my goodbye letter..
Whatever, do with this information as you please, carpe diem or something. :)
