Discussion something you would tell your past self?

[Flippy]

I would tell her:

1. You weren't a bad child. Your mother was just insane. I'm sorry.
2. You and I both know you're attempting to go to med school because someone else is trying to steal your dreams and aspirations (yea it's mom). You want to go into education, trust me.
3. 300 mg of Wellbutrin and 30 mg of Lexapro. That's the sweet spot.
4. I'm sorry I didn't love you more. You are beautiful. I know when you look at a mirror you see the fat, ugly girl that mom says you are, but I want to tell you that when I see a picture of you (my younger self), I'm blown away by how beautiful you (I) are (was). I regret that I never loved myself more. Please love yourself a bit more.
5. I lost the most important person in my life because I was a horrible friend. You might not realize it now, but she was the only one who was able to understand what was going on at home. I know you're always angry and irritated, but don't take it out on her. Value her. Apologize sooner. Don't let the insecurities you hold push her away. Don't put her down to make yourself feel better. Don't be jealous just because she had the mom you wanted, she was going through her own battles too.

Holy crap, you hit the nail on the head: I honestly fantasize about taking my younger self away and raising her myself.

Do you have a hobby/talent right now? Something you would recommend to your younger self.

My mother caused me to believe that I was bad too :-( Yeah, she was/is insane too. Also like you, I see pictures of myself when I was a kid and I realise just how lucky I was in the "looks" department. I should have been nothing but confident, looks get you a long way in life, provided you have the self assuredness to back it up. Without, you become a target for jealous bullies and abusers. I don't regard myself as having those looks anymore, they are destroyed and gone.

I guess I would tell myself at several stages, that yes "what these adults/teachers are doing to you is wrong, what your mother did to you on holiday was very wrong."

"You mother is going to do lots of very wrong things over the next 13 years and you need to be brave and tell someone who can make it stop. She's a very unwell person. Don't be afraid, she's told you that if you dare tell anyone she will make things worse for you than ever and that they won't believe you and you will get locked up. But the truth is, she knows she's in deep shit if you do as you should. Report her now, save yourself, your sister, your family the misery that will happen as a direct consequence of your mother's behaviour. She's too messed up to control herself and it's not your fault"

"You aren't ugly, in fact quite the opposite, you are just an androgenous looking and pretty kid and that makes some people uncomfortable, particularly men who can't figure out how to relate to you. The fact that your mother wants to feminise you isn't going to help with that either."

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

Her and I are very distinct individuals—our needs and wants are not the same. Whatever I say or do would probably do little to change the course of things.

If you're familiar with the Fate series, you'll know he tried.


I'd just give her a pat on the head, then a slap across the face.

 

[Bullit]

Ha! Boy would I give that jerk an earful. But too late now!

 

[Snake of Eden]

Stay right where you are!

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

I would say find heroin and do as much to croak. Or get benzos and take 1000.

 

[enau]

run away, and faster

 

[one.way.out]

Research how to hang yourself. Use a bowline and a simple noose. Find a tree in a forest, and a ladder. That'll work.

 

[insanedoomer]

just ..." try to die , and please do your best " .

 

[clown_17]

If you're going to go with pills, take hundreds and mix with alcohol don't take like 20 and expect to die. And buy Sn

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Save yourself a lot of pain and suffering and just do it now. Because you kn0ow that dream you always had since your teens? It will come true and then you will fuck that up and lose it too and then you will know TRUE despair, so just end it NOW.

 

[Wrennie]

Dear child me,
Never trust adults. Ever. You will never be human in their eyes. Focus only on deceiving them as to what you really are.
Don't swallow the pills. Hide them in your cheek and spit them out when they have their backs turned.
Don't play outside. Get bitten by one deer tick and it's "bye-bye nervous system" forever.

 

[deadverysoon]

never start to work for a company like that.

 

[pole]

better to have done it earlier. should have done it already.

 

[FailureGirl]

If it was child me I'd say "always try to finish what you started and always stand up for yourself". If was 20 year old me I'd tell myself "leave him and go to the police it's not your fault. You can choose better"

 

[Walkingcorpse123]

You are going to die before 30.

 

[mandyjohnuk]

If possible.
I would say that on the 6th of March on 2012 make sure you stay seated all day in the living room and chill.

The result would be no injury that's caused years of endless pain and arguing with doctors for pain Meds.

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

If possible.
I would say that on the 6th of March on 2012 make sure you stay seated all day in the living room and chill.

The result would be no injury that's caused years of endless pain and arguing with doctors for pain Meds.

What happened?

 

[mandyjohnuk]

What happened?

Hi.

Watching a Van Damme film when he was kicking a tree. I thought I could do it so went to kick my stairs. The result was a torn Meniscus. A wait of 2 years for my operation that didn't work resulting in constant pain and can't bend or straighten fully. Crazy times.

 

[Anonymous1997ES]

1. Fight back against bullies, either punch, kick or yell, but don't stay shut.

2. Don't focus your entire existence solely on helping people, because once you get abandoned everything will get downhill...

3. If someone ever tells you you may have Asperger's, don't tell anyone, no matter what happens... Trust me, that way you will avoid a lot of pain.

4. Grades aren't the only thing that matters, learn how to have better social skills and how to communicate better, it will help a lot.

5. Don't drift away from some people despite being depressed, otherwise those bonds will never be the same...

 

[PinkSakura]

I would say "things don't get better"

 

[nofutureghost]

ctb as soon as you can, nothing's gonna get better, everything can get worse and you are a fuckin insignificant depressed trash, no one cares if you die not even you and you know that very well, just do it. I mean, look at you, do you think you are alive? makes no difference if you are breathing or not, life is just not for you. They don't love you and no one will. You're alone in the future. Alone again. Don't make the same mistakes that I did being a coward.

(idk.... I'm proud of you tbh you made some progress but things just don't get better no matter what... maybe you can fix it? maybe you can choose another ways? but just remember that hope only sent you to hell all over this years. I'm tired, angry, frustrated and alone but kinda jealous that you are having a second chance even though the "what if's" scares me a lot.
trust no one. never forget it.)

 

[BridgeJumper]

That for the sake of my friendships and everything else I had in life, I should just keep it inside. Nobody will help me, all I get from demonstrating my suicidality is punishment with psych wards and people drifting away. So many close people drifting away.... Cried wolf so many times even my parents dont give a fuck.


Also if I knew that abusing headphones would blow holes through my inner ears and give me a condition that affects 0,5-1% of people, and that I will be in agonizing pain for the rest of my life and too broke to pay surgery to fix it, I would NEVER put these little shits in my ears again.


And opiates. Opiates were among top mistakes of my life. Now I have even more agonizing pain, seizures, nosebleeds, clotting problems, prostitution, 0 money and all around hopeless.

I would say "things don't get better"

'And all you have to say, is that its gonna get better, its gonna get better but it never does...'

 

[rosie93]

'Be careful what you wish for'

 

[HomesickAlien]

Any limit to how far back in time I could travel or how many things to tell?
In order of importance I guess. Okay, I'd go back 22 years and tell myself:
1. Yes by all means go to a therapist, just not the one you're going. Do a little research on Asperger's and find proper advice on how to manage it.
2. Get second and third opinions on other medical issues you have.
3. Do NOT try to become a leverage day trader. You don't have the financial background or psychological conditions to be in the 10% who succeed.
4. Do buy Apple stock, and buy BTC when you catch wind of it! Keep it in a wallet and not in an exchange.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

You need to CTB while you are still a teen. It will get waaay shittier the longer you are here.

 

[meetapple]

1. Fight back against bullies, either punch, kick or yell, but don't stay shut.

2. Don't focus your entire existence solely on helping people, because once you get abandoned everything will get downhill...

3. If someone ever tells you you may have Asperger's, don't tell anyone, no matter what happens... Trust me, that way you will avoid a lot of pain.

4. Grades aren't the only thing that matters, learn how to have better social skills and how to communicate better, it will help a lot.

5. Don't drift away from some people despite being depressed, otherwise those bonds will never be the same...

I concur with you about telling yourself that grades aren't the only thing that's important. I am a living example of what bad social skills and lack of social experiences can do to a person.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

You're going to get sick in 2014. You won't recover. Make passive income plans, keep good health insurance, and have a good medication plan.

 

[ElyNoFantasy]

Go to the art school because it's much cooler than na engineering school and you'll meet a lot of interesting people. And when you've had enough, take the pills you've been saving. Take more than I did. Take enough. And hide while they do their effect.

 

[bad luck]

Don't trust the psychiatrists. Don't make quick decisions. Never drink alcohol and do a lot of sports