Someone I never met died recently after his dad died...

[idelttoilfsadness21]

I want to keep things as confidential as possible but I was suppose to have an appointment and learned that men who were always my counselor every year quit unexpectedly without warning and realized the same pattern happened again and did a little digging and found that they died. I know this place isn't for this type of stuff but I want to pay respects for all men who feel the need to ctb due to anything in their lives and hope they are at peace and am so disappointed this world did this to them.

I may not be normal anymore because of my traumas, but for those who lived somewhat greater lives than me, it breaks my heart to see right in front of you and wish I could take their place as I never wanted to exist in this world and hope they lived a better future than I.

Hoping you love someone in your life right now and give them a hug before they're gone and before you ctb.
I am awaiting a new information on who will be in charge of me and won't say anything prior as I was spooked out of my mind and don't wanna jeopardize my safety of ctb... Thankfully no one knows I am dead inside...

 

[timf]

I am not sure if the phrase "dead inside" applies. It sounds like you have a sensitivity and a caring heart. These are pretty rare today. The world can be rough on those who are sensitive, but there are those who can appreciate and respond to what you have to give.