woofwag
Bad dog
- Sep 17, 2025
- 295
Soooo I'm on Grindr again ig!! It's really fun to see how many people think I'm gorgeous/cute/sexy, etc. I know a lot of them probably just want some fuck and don't care about my looks, but still, at least a portion of them has to actually be attracted to me, right? Plus, the whole reason I did it is because I FINALLY sewed a loop in my underwear so I can actually feel the strap too. I am so nervous. I've only topped once before with my ex and it was... not super great. But this strap is way way better and incredibly realistic and has a fucking cum tube EEEEE!!!!! I have no idea how to dom properly. I've done it before, and done it pretty well too, but I always get so nervous so it takes foreverrrrr for me to get to the point I can actually dom them. Idk what to say really, or what to do, I'm 5"6' and not super strong so maneuvering people by myself is difficult too. I wish there were a guide book for this shit... it feels like doms just already know what's happening and how to do it and have zero hesitation. I really worry about letting them down. Plus I have POTS, so I worry about running out of stamina fast. Maybe I should do workouts for it lol.
I want to experience sex without feeling gross afterwards, because being submissive can make me dysphoric, and at the worst of times, trigger a PTSD episode. I don't seem to get that way at all after domming. It's just like... oh, this is right. This is what I'm meant to be doing. Even if I do enjoy being a sub for the right person. It just feels so validating. Idk. Maybe I'll screw up with all these people and still feel gross after domming because I'm horrible at it. But... I want to try. So bad. I want to try at everything. I'm tired of being a perpetual fuck-up. I'm tired of not limiting my sexual interactions just because I've had bad ones before. This is possible, it must be possible for me right? Somehow, with enough determination, there's gotta be a way to make this work. I think.
I want to experience sex without feeling gross afterwards, because being submissive can make me dysphoric, and at the worst of times, trigger a PTSD episode. I don't seem to get that way at all after domming. It's just like... oh, this is right. This is what I'm meant to be doing. Even if I do enjoy being a sub for the right person. It just feels so validating. Idk. Maybe I'll screw up with all these people and still feel gross after domming because I'm horrible at it. But... I want to try. So bad. I want to try at everything. I'm tired of being a perpetual fuck-up. I'm tired of not limiting my sexual interactions just because I've had bad ones before. This is possible, it must be possible for me right? Somehow, with enough determination, there's gotta be a way to make this work. I think.
