Querry1
life is unfair, ctb or get away
- Aug 16, 2018
- 180
As I said, I'm copypasting my story. I said earlier that I phoned 911 - my mistake, I didn't remember it and actually it was other way around, sorry for that.
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Hey guys, last night I went with sodium nitrite and wanted to share some a story.
I mixed 15g with 60ml of water, half hour before I took really weak antiemetic. My heart was beating like crazy, probably because I was scared as fuck and it was going to be the end of my miserable life.
I can't compare taste to anything, but it's not so bad, although nothing enjoyable.
20 mins in, I felt like vomiting and I spent a lot of time in the bathroom doing that. Then,, after ten minutes I felt unbearable pain, like I've felt worse, but still it was hard to go through this, so I went to my sis and told her to call emergency asap and that she hasn't much time.
An hour in, I got blackout and I can't remember anything from that time, not even that they reanimated me.
Now it's 11 hours after this, I'm in hospital and I'm completely fine, I told docs that it was stupid of me and of course I wouldn't try again, so they won't keep me there for long.
I'm sure if I didn't go to my sister, I would go through it and most likely be dead by now."
To add to all of this, I was in psych ward for 6 weeks, but I've been training all this time/reading books/went to group walks/talked with folks there so it wasn't too bad.
I'm enjoying my life now, but I know that sooner or later I will attempt again, but for now it's chill.
If you have any questions, feel free to ask.
"
Hey guys, last night I went with sodium nitrite and wanted to share some a story.
I mixed 15g with 60ml of water, half hour before I took really weak antiemetic. My heart was beating like crazy, probably because I was scared as fuck and it was going to be the end of my miserable life.
I can't compare taste to anything, but it's not so bad, although nothing enjoyable.
20 mins in, I felt like vomiting and I spent a lot of time in the bathroom doing that. Then,, after ten minutes I felt unbearable pain, like I've felt worse, but still it was hard to go through this, so I went to my sis and told her to call emergency asap and that she hasn't much time.
An hour in, I got blackout and I can't remember anything from that time, not even that they reanimated me.
Now it's 11 hours after this, I'm in hospital and I'm completely fine, I told docs that it was stupid of me and of course I wouldn't try again, so they won't keep me there for long.
I'm sure if I didn't go to my sister, I would go through it and most likely be dead by now."
To add to all of this, I was in psych ward for 6 weeks, but I've been training all this time/reading books/went to group walks/talked with folks there so it wasn't too bad.
I'm enjoying my life now, but I know that sooner or later I will attempt again, but for now it's chill.
If you have any questions, feel free to ask.