Venting Ordered sodium nitrite, feel terrible.

[toyu]

Just ordered sodium nitrite, now extremely stressed about people finding out, can't sleep because I'm thinking about dying, not 100% sure if I want to die, would want to get better but I'd rather kill myself than try to talk to anyone. Kind of repressed most emotion for a while and now I'm feeling a lot of it and am kind of consumed by thinking about it and I feel like shit. Don't even know why I'm posting this, personally hate this site and a lot of what it stands for (I'm a hypocrite) but I just have like nowhere else to say anything since I can't bring myself to talk to my friends of family.

 

[skatergirl]

Just ordered sodium nitrite, now extremely stressed about people finding out, can't sleep because I'm thinking about dying, not 100% sure if I want to die, would want to get better but I'd rather kill myself than try to talk to anyone. Kind of repressed most emotion for a while and now I'm feeling a lot of it and am kind of consumed by thinking about it and I feel like shit. Don't even know why I'm posting this, personally hate this site and a lot of what it stands for (I'm a hypocrite) but I just have like nowhere else to say anything since I can't bring myself to talk to my friends of family.

Sounds like you want to be here stay xx