So tired of the rat race

[CravingPeace]

I'm 29 years old and, up until I manically lost my PhD program and assistantship, I always had some form of force that drove me to succeed and strive for more accomplishments, meet milestones for the "betterment" of my own life.

Now that I've entered the workforce a few years ago, the milestones have all but disappeared. Now it is just a daily repetition of the same thing, over and over. The struggle to prevent burnout in a stagnant job that I'll be at for what seems like forever. All to make a borderline poverty level salary while paying back high student loans and constant medical bills and overspending from my time in addiction. For what?

It all seems so pointless. After school, the only milestone left is death.

 

[ihatemyselfwanttodi]

Won't anybody think of the shareholders? You gotta provide some value to them, duh

This is a joke btw

 

[leandra]

Try starting a family. It worked for our parents

 

[CravingPeace]

Try starting a family. It worked for our parents

I need to find someone to love me first or maybe I should just marry a rando just because of the expected societal norm of it all

 

[leandra]

I need to find someone to love me first or maybe I should just marry a rando just because of the expected societal norm of it all

Why not marry a random, i mean in my country all marriages were arranged in the past and they worked out somehow. Though, maybe try dating. Who known perhaps you might find the will to live p:

 

[CravingPeace]

Why not marry a random, i mean in my country all marriages were arranged in the past and they worked out somehow. Though, maybe try dating. Who known perhaps you might find the will to live p:

My main mantra right now is, I need to learn how to love myself properly first, before I can have someone expect me to love them properly, too

 

[leandra]

My main mantra right now is, I need to learn how to love myself properly first, before I can have someone expect me to love them properly, too

I might be reaching but dont you think that you're using this mantra as an excuse? You definitely can find someone who would show you how lovable of a person you are
Sorry if i sound rude

 

[CravingPeace]

I might be reaching but dont you think that you're using this mantra as an excuse? You definitely can find someone who would show you how lovable of a person you are
Sorry if i sound rude

No need to apologize, you're probably right.