Venting So lonely

[Lone_Traveler90]

Been completely lonely for so long now...something really bad happened recently which cemented my idea of ctb, I tried talking to my brother and last couple of friends I have left (they all live abroad) but how do you talk to somebody who is happy and have everything they wanted? The moment I start to spill my feelings they don't know what to say, just go ''give it time, all gona be alright'' and I just end up changing subject...I feel so lonely, nobody really can understand when you feel that you need to go. How do you deal with that?

 

[theboy]

Im here! u are not alone

 

[FuneralCry]

It's just not worth it, opening up to people like that about your suffering as it will only just make things worse, at least this is the way that I would see it. Many people push toxic optimism onto others as they are in denial of the cruel reality of this existence, they don't want to accept the fact that existence actually can get so awful to the point that suicide is the preferable option. But I do get that loneliness certainly can be painful for many people, it must be hard to deal with being in that situation. It's such an incredibly cruel existence where all of this endless suffering very sadly exists.

 

[Uber]

This is the place to spill those feelings. Give it a try.

 

[ElfenLied]

I've been alone my whole life, I know how you feel.

 

[Heartbroken2022]

I am also here :) Also alone at home, but not feeling so much alone when reading in this forum. I hope this gives some comfort to you as well.

 

[asterisk3]

im less lonely when lurking here. but it doesnt fix the lack of personal connections. this forum is the only place in the internet ive seen people this honest about themselves, its a nice change of pace. or maybe its just me glad to have found a suicide forum. im the same, cant tell others because it'll change nothing (already did and it made things worse). my parent knows im a total wreck now and seems like theyre just ok with or content with the idea of me dying, never ever even tried to talk to me or give the slightest support. its soul crushing. im just so tired.

i recommend trying to gather your remaining forces and do good things for and with yourself but im saying this without the strength necessary for me to do this myself and i imagine many others in this forum are the same: we just dont have enough drive or energy anymore.

i hope you can do something good about your situation

 

[releasespieces]

Other people should always compliment you as a person and never possess, negate your feelings or make you feel inferior. Best to focus on my own thoughts and feelings, introspection is enough stimulation for me. Loneliness isn't always about being around other people, sometimes it's something else.

 

[ForeverLonely82]

I,too, am lonely as well. Most people I used to talk to and the little conversations of those who will still find the 20 seconds in their day to talk to me are pretty content and of course have more than I could ever dream. Lately I've been trying to find a A.I to talk to, but most of them either don't like naughty words or are stupid beyond my realm of converstation. I hope it gets better in time because that's all I have. Life is a crimeless incarceration. There is barely any difference between existing and being in jail other than a few altercations that can take place. Constantly blame myself because I feel at some point in my life I must have did something bad to warrant this soul crushing loneliness, but everytime I think hard I can't think of what I've done in order to be as lonely as this. Never mistreated women, Never stole or back stabbed anyone, always been kind, still am to those who are as such and gave what I could.. Don't understand it at all. I don't require much to be content really. Just want love and be loved in return, have a couple friends that will chill with me once in a while and enjoy some brews. Just that alone would lift this dark veil that follows us, but fate has more Bullshit in store for us who have tried and may continue to try. Just beat us down until we can't do it anymore.


One thing that highly annoys me lately are these damn ADS that state Group Coupons so you and your friends can save $20 on your bill or games that preach about having friends to play and have fun I am sitting here in a rage thinking "WHAT FRIENDS!? DOES THESE PEOPLE LIVE IN A WORLD WHERE THIS CONCEPT EXISTS, IF SO WHERE IS IT SO I CAN PACK UP AND GTFOH!" Alas such a place doesn't exist for us. Continue to feel that familar sting in our hearts, cry until we are dry and just merely existing because mental health specialist (brainwashers is a better word) said so. They say "If you're suffering, don't do so alone call our hotline number!" WTF.. have you ever tried those? People there don't give a damn for starters AND they 5150 you if mention anything regarding CTB... We live in the most loneliest timeline in recorded history that I've been in. No one really gives a shit about you unless they can use you for something it would seem. I hate it.

 

[outrider567]

Been alone for a year now--Its hell

 

[lionetta12]

Been completely lonely for so long now...something really bad happened recently which cemented my idea of ctb, I tried talking to my brother and last couple of friends I have left (they all live abroad) but how do you talk to somebody who is happy and have everything they wanted? The moment I start to spill my feelings they don't know what to say, just go ''give it time, all gona be alright'' and I just end up changing subject...I feel so lonely, nobody really can understand when you feel that you need to go. How do you deal with that?

Nothing makes me feel more lonely than to talk to people who don't understand or who have it very easy and who come up with «easy solutions» and suggestions.

 

[BBBB]

Been completely lonely for so long now...something really bad happened recently which cemented my idea of ctb, I tried talking to my brother and last couple of friends I have left (they all live abroad) but how do you talk to somebody who is happy and have everything they wanted? The moment I start to spill my feelings they don't know what to say, just go ''give it time, all gona be alright'' and I just end up changing subject...I feel so lonely, nobody really can understand when you feel that you need to go. How do you deal with that?

I'm here for you!! Just reach out!

 

[wantittoendsoon]

as you can see there are many caring people here to talk to, maybe if you get comfortable enough to video chat that would help too...reach out, you are not alone.

 

[Regen]

Spending time with people who Love their Life and who are healthy and Happy is also very sad for me and feel very lonely together with them.

I wish I could find all these high funktionell but high depressiv people. There must be million of them in my country. But they are hidden like me...

I think a real and deep friendship I can only have with people who know how it is being chronical depressiv, but also funktionell. A friendship with "normal" people leaves me always suicidal. They dont understand me and I am angry inside because I want a normal life too.

So I think you have to found people like you to feel less lonely. But how to do that in real life... Maybe selfcare groups or group therapy.

 

[TimetoGo!]

Been completely lonely for so long now...something really bad happened recently which cemented my idea of ctb, I tried talking to my brother and last couple of friends I have left (they all live abroad) but how do you talk to somebody who is happy and have everything they wanted? The moment I start to spill my feelings they don't know what to say, just go ''give it time, all gona be alright'' and I just end up changing subject...I feel so lonely, nobody really can understand when you feel that you need to go. How do you deal with that?

Completely understand this……it almost feels weird talking about it to people and the subject gets changed.

All the charities say "open up" amd "talk to someone " …..well when you do no one understands anyway

 

[BBBB]

I'm so incredibly lonely, wish I had someone to talk to. :-( Every waking second is torture!

 

[CTB Dream]

Sorry this lonel understand feel hurt this know but also no lisen other say talk random human etc most human no ok talk ctb all awful be careful.,. Think here ok talk do say any welcome

 

[Wannagonow]

Like you- I'm alone and very lonely. It absolutely sucks. I really agree with your thought on not really being able to talk to people when they're happy and have everything they want. Wow!! I never looked at it that way before! It's true.

There are people on here at any given time of the day or night. Always someone to talk too. I know it's not the same as having a real live person sitting across from you. But talking to people here can help validate that people know you exist and they care.

I wish you well.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

Since my Dog passed 10 months ago l have been falling deeper into the abyss and l'm ok with that,l'm tired and want to be gone from this evil place called society!

 

[Uber]

@Lone_Traveler90 How you doing today?

 

[Lone_Traveler90]

@Lone_Traveler90 How you doing today?

Hi, thanks for asking. All I can say is 'I am'. Days are getting darker

 

[Uber]

Hi, thanks for asking. All I can say is 'I am'. Days are getting darker

What light source do you feel is absent that causes this darkness to increase?