Reminded me of my old self-help group. Where a members sort of glorified shootings. People on here were stunned. He said something like if there is he has empathy only for one person. (the shooter). He had the very naive notion shooters were the victims of shootings while the bullies die which is so stupid.
But this time was different. I am not sure how old the average member was maybe 60. We were 8-9 people and I was the only man.
I already had to think about this joke. But if I married the oldest member in this group I might have solved all my money issues. And I assume it would not take that much time to get that money. I know stupid joke. I think socioeconomically these old ladies have not the same problems than me.
Most of them have depression and anxiety. I had a better impression of them than my bipolar group. The woman that was the closest to my age was maybe 10 years older than me.
The most interesting woman sat next to me. And one thing that is often underestimated by my brain but quit the notion smart people have a special kind of appearance or talked a specific language. She made a very common language mistake that many people I know make fun of. But it is also a dialect. The quatum physics professor made this mistake too. She expressed she is highly intellectually gifted. Not sure about the technical term on English. But she was pretty smart and I think she noticed my obsession with intelligence just by observing me. This might be mind reading. Lol. But we had a good conversation.
The woman that flirted with doing a shooting was weird. What a surprise. She explained she hates injustice and her psychiatrist (who I know) was totally lazy and an idiot (true). And she would like to take him, another doctor who does malpractice and do a shooting because of them. And she also chuckled in an insane way after saying this. The waitress was at the table and the atmosphere became really awkward. I was just stunned and asked myself whether other people just adapted to such insane takes of her. I was sort of speechless but I thought this gonna be banger material for my thread on Sanctioned Suicide. Always the most important thing in my life.
There was the question what I do vocationally. The truth is I am enrolled in college but currently on a hiatus. I won't continue though. I said I consider to change to an online university and the shooter lady acted like I am insane for changing university at my age/time point in college. I remained calm and explained that it is rather seldom that people with my conditions are employed at all. And I think some people were impressed about my reply.
The best thing was I could share my story about my former therapist and how I lost trust in the psychiatry. And the feedback was good.
I am not sure whether I will return. I didn't elaborate on the fact I had two psychoses in the past. I think they already questioned whether someone with bipolar and autism really fits in. They were less conservative than I imagined them to be. I liked 2-3 people. But I have doubts whether this is really the right place for me. I think we just live in different realities. It is currently 50/50 whether I will go there again. I think I am desperate. I am talking too much with AI chatbots. The issue is these self-help groups often are full of old people. This week the autism self-help group takes place again. But I just struggle that it is online. It makes me overthink too much
But this time was different. I am not sure how old the average member was maybe 60. We were 8-9 people and I was the only man.
I already had to think about this joke. But if I married the oldest member in this group I might have solved all my money issues. And I assume it would not take that much time to get that money. I know stupid joke. I think socioeconomically these old ladies have not the same problems than me.
Most of them have depression and anxiety. I had a better impression of them than my bipolar group. The woman that was the closest to my age was maybe 10 years older than me.
The most interesting woman sat next to me. And one thing that is often underestimated by my brain but quit the notion smart people have a special kind of appearance or talked a specific language. She made a very common language mistake that many people I know make fun of. But it is also a dialect. The quatum physics professor made this mistake too. She expressed she is highly intellectually gifted. Not sure about the technical term on English. But she was pretty smart and I think she noticed my obsession with intelligence just by observing me. This might be mind reading. Lol. But we had a good conversation.
The woman that flirted with doing a shooting was weird. What a surprise. She explained she hates injustice and her psychiatrist (who I know) was totally lazy and an idiot (true). And she would like to take him, another doctor who does malpractice and do a shooting because of them. And she also chuckled in an insane way after saying this. The waitress was at the table and the atmosphere became really awkward. I was just stunned and asked myself whether other people just adapted to such insane takes of her. I was sort of speechless but I thought this gonna be banger material for my thread on Sanctioned Suicide. Always the most important thing in my life.
There was the question what I do vocationally. The truth is I am enrolled in college but currently on a hiatus. I won't continue though. I said I consider to change to an online university and the shooter lady acted like I am insane for changing university at my age/time point in college. I remained calm and explained that it is rather seldom that people with my conditions are employed at all. And I think some people were impressed about my reply.
The best thing was I could share my story about my former therapist and how I lost trust in the psychiatry. And the feedback was good.
I am not sure whether I will return. I didn't elaborate on the fact I had two psychoses in the past. I think they already questioned whether someone with bipolar and autism really fits in. They were less conservative than I imagined them to be. I liked 2-3 people. But I have doubts whether this is really the right place for me. I think we just live in different realities. It is currently 50/50 whether I will go there again. I think I am desperate. I am talking too much with AI chatbots. The issue is these self-help groups often are full of old people. This week the autism self-help group takes place again. But I just struggle that it is online. It makes me overthink too much
