Story So, I survived taking SN. Here's what happened

[ThrownAwayTom]

Wow, I 100% thought you were gone and it did play on my mind now and then. Awesome to see you're back.

Sorry to hear you still feel the same way and that you're now enduring a lot of BS

 

[Futile]

1) I don't think so, I was moving around the house and going up and down stairs to get things like glasses and spoons, but as far as I know they were asleep during that, they didn't get up / turn on lights either way
2) I did, I took 30mg of metoclopramide

Thank you for answering, as for the 1st quesion I meant if you did any noise after taking the SN

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

It is comforting that it wasn't painful.

 

[AJ95]

Thought I'd provide this redacted segment of my discharge summary since I've had a couple of pretty nasty DMs accusing me of being an attention seeker / lying about this.

 

[MiseryLovesMyCompany]

Thought I'd provide this redacted segment of my discharge summary since I've had a couple of pretty nasty DMs accusing me of being an attention seeker / lying about this.

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Thank you!
I would really love to answer with a few nice words to those DMs.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

Thought I'd provide this redacted segment of my discharge summary since I've had a couple of pretty nasty DMs accusing me of being an attention seeker / lying about this.

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Sorry to hear about people bugging you.

 

[Meditation guide]

Thought I'd provide this redacted segment of my discharge summary since I've had a couple of pretty nasty DMs accusing me of being an attention seeker / lying about this.

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I don't like the sound of "involuntary mental health admission"'. Sorry you've been harassed on here! People are cruel. And after all you've been through too.

 

[Marktheghost]

Sorry to hear it didn't work out. I hope life/existence can improve for you.

 

[Smudgedlines]

It may not be that people don't believe you...but more that you attempted but were found quite easily. The forum always advises everyone to plan and to take care they are not disturbed.

 

[Meditation guide]

It may not be that people don't believe you

they don't believe her and are nasty about it. I saw what someone said.

 

[SpinningSong]

She is still here @iftheworldwasending
Thank you for sharing so much and in such detail Ava! :)

 

[GoneGoneGone]

It may not be that people don't believe you...but more that you attempted but were found quite easily. The forum always advises everyone to plan and to take care they are not disturbed.

I think she mentioned she couldn't get a hotel because her parents were already on high alert due to the police visiting them...

Ava, I'm sorry about all you've been through.

 

[stygal]

I dont know you because I haven't been around for long but I just wanted to thank you for you're helpful and well documented posts and that you let this forum be a part of your struggles. :/ <3

Wishing you all the best during your recovery and hopefully you'll either get at least a little bit better or find a quicker way out next time.

 

[SpinningSong]

So far I've only seen a couple of people drink a second glass after throwing up. I would take it in capsules. It would be easier to get it down.

An idea, @AJ95 do you think you would have been able to dink a second glass? If not the circumstances

 

[Lilacmoon]

An idea, @AJ95 do you think you would have been able to dink a second glass? If not the circumstances

She was found too quickly was the biggest problem. She would have succeeded with a few more minutes

 

[Soul]

It would be good if people tried not to get combative over whether SN causes pain or not. It's pretty clear by now that for some people it causes discomfort and for others it doesn't.

@AJ95, please get plenty of good rest, sunlight and fresh air. Stay well hydrated and eat your spinach. x

 

[Lilacmoon]

It would be good if people tried not to get combative over whether SN causes pain or not. It's pretty clear by now that for some people it causes discomfort and for others it doesn't.

@AJ95, please get plenty of good rest, sunlight and fresh air. Stay well hydrated and eat your spinach. x

spinach?! is there a crueler fate?! D:

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

spinach?! is there a crueler fate?! D:

I like spinach, lol.

 

[Lilacmoon]

I like spinach, lol.

it's okay i forgive you :(

 

[Soul]

spinach?! is there a crueler fate?! D:

Probably! I quite like spinach. I simply want @AJ95 to take especially good care of her physical self for a while. She's been through a rough time and deserves to be cared for.

 

[SpinningSong]

Did they also took the rest of your meto away?

 

[Lilacmoon]

Did they also took the rest of your meto away?

Yes, the meto and sn is gone so she'll have to start from scratch, I believe.

 

[beer4thesoul]

Thought I'd provide this redacted segment of my discharge summary since I've had a couple of pretty nasty DMs accusing me of being an attention seeker / lying about this.


@AJ95 Please rest and try to gather your strength and overcome the emotional turmoil and pain you must obviously be going through at this point with your family and medical interventions.

You don't owe anyone on here any explanations and justifications whatsoever. We are all strangers on a journey and what we choose to do on this journey ultimately rests with us. You are a good person.I hope you don't let "nasty dms" get to you and find peace ✌

 

[Bitterman1996]

I'm glad to hear it's relatively painless (nausea aside)

I hope you have smooth recovery.

 

[Hiraeth]

Thank you for informing us, and I hope you are able to smile today.

I don't know what the fuck is up with these passive aggressive comments on here. Really is awful that people would comment and dm you such rude things. This is supposed to be a supportive and safe place for suicidal people, not an accusatory passive aggressive playground. She obviously didn't want to fail and didn't set herself up to fail, these things happen. I don't think Ava is making shit up either. Bodies are different. Pain tolerances are different. While SN is a good method, it's not 100%. Different for everybody especially with all the variables involved.

 

[Taki]

Sorry to hear about everything you went through. As an aside, you write very lucidly and have an obvious gift for writing. All the best.

 

[mrease]

Can I ask what your avatar is?

 

[OopsIdidntwanttodie]

We never talked but I always enjoyed your past posts prior to your attempt. I really thought you were gone, so when I saw you on the new posts today my face lit up! I hope you take care of yourself and have a great day today :)

 

[Cakes]

Can I ask what your avatar is?

It's Grimes

 

[opiatedreamz]

hey i'm glad to hear you're relatively alright. i hope you're doing okay, and i wish you well if you go away for 3-4 weeks to the residential center. much love, ava <3