Venting so fucking lonely

[manic]

i have no friends and its my fault- barley any interaction with anyone besides family and even then my siblings have other people in their life and they probably think im stupid anyways. i am feeling empty all the time and the loneliness makes it even stronger, i am not joking when i say to people "i have no friends" i am young too so i should have friends my age obviously but i just cant make any and im too paranoid tbh after a bad experience that caused me to take legal action. I dont know what to do with this loneliness. ofc this isnt my only reason to CTB i have bpd and bipolar which makes my life fucking difficult to live but added loneliness is so much. i just wish i was fucking important enough to have at least one person. i think that maybe things were meant to be this way, i never had a normal experience with life and my own head while everyone else around me has "normal" problems for their age. i just cant deal with this fucking emptiness and loneliness anymore, it bangs around in my chest and feels unbearable.

 

[Wonhun]

Normie do what normie does and it is boring. I dont like them which in return makes me more eager to win back my FP.

 

[GoSan1]

I know that feeling, I used to be the same, but after a while, I realized that the people I have met aren't even those I would want to be friends with. That is how I realized I am a misfit, so maybe you are too? But you know, there is nothing wrong with that. It's not something bad. We are simply different and are maybe born in a place we don't belong in. So don't be too hard on yourself, but rather stay true to yourself!

But since I'm going to CTB, I am in no position to tell you what you should try or do, so I just hope you don't blame yourself. It's just bad luck, and I hope that in the end misfits like us go to the right places, where we belong...

 

[deathproof17]

I can relate to the feelings of loneliness and emptyness. I am a friendless loser and have struggled to make friends my entire life. I'm 31 and havn't had a close friend in over 10 years. Never had a girlfriend. In school people made friends without even trying but I was always anxious and shy so the other kids thought I was weird and bullied me.