Venting Cant take it anymore, but ill live a while longer

[Somegirlinhere]

Ahh, does it even count as an attempt? I tried a shallow water blackout, didnt work, obvioustly. I was so stupid, and it ruined my week cause im even more dissapointed to be alive. the day after my mom found one of my various suicide notes... wow, im so ungrateful. shes so worried, and it only makes me want to die more. she wants to tell my father, who doesnt know anything about my issues. Ugh, i havent cut in a while, at least not with a good blade, and its stressing me out. everything is stressing me out and i feel like im going insane. i need to die, i need to!! Ill try to hang myself with some old rags, since i dont have a rope. after that ill risk ruining my liver by an overdose, and if that doesnt work maybe ill just jump off from a shopping mall rooftop or something, i dont have that many options. i could drown in a lake, but its dirty as hell and someone could find me.

 

[Gomomon]

I mean, it counts as an attempt, I say, if you attempted to die. I've had so many attempts where I just did not plan out carefully and did things on impulse, half-heartedly, and unplanned. Helium, jumping off a bridge/car, ODing, but I'm still here, as you can tell. That usually doesn't work well, I know what it's like to have basically no options at your disposal and you just wanna get out as quick as possible....My mom also found out recently after I got hospitalized, and it makes me annoyed cause everyones on my case when I don't want them to be, and my mental health non-believer estranged father also knows about me now. I would say try to research what method could possibly work for you that would have a high success rate in your situation. Like, do you have access to firearms, SN, CO2 poisoning/Helium tanks ect in your country or money at your disposal?

 

[Somegirlinhere]

I mean, it counts as an attempt, I say, if you attempted to die. I've had so many attempts where I just did not plan out carefully and did things on impulse, half-heartedly, and unplanned. Helium, jumping off a bridge/car, ODing, but I'm still here, as you can tell. That usually doesn't work well, I know what it's like to have basically no options at your disposal and you just wanna get out as quick as possible....My mom also found out recently after I got hospitalized, and it makes me annoyed cause everyones on my case when I don't want them to be, and my mental health non-believer estranged father also knows about me now. I would say try to research what method could possibly work for you that would have a high success rate in your situation. Like, do you have access to firearms, SN, CO2 poisoning/Helium tanks ect in your country or money at your disposal?

Thanks for the reply, im sorry to hear youve been through a similar experience. Gosh, no. my country regulates everything- no sn, no firearms, nothing, really. I guess I can try an overdose I planned out fairly well, but im thinking of partial hanging for now.

 

[Gomomon]

Thanks for the reply, im sorry to hear youve been through a similar experience. Gosh, no. my country regulates everything- no sn, no firearms, nothing, really. I guess I can try an overdose I planned out fairly well, but im thinking of partial hanging for now.

Well, I wish you some peace of mind . I love the Lain pfp btw