
Thisgirlwantstosleep
A pointless life had in a pointless world
- Mar 11, 2019
- 130
Managed to snag propranolol but then I found I can't take it because of my asthma. I was going to do a test by breaking a pill in half then taking it but my asthma has been flaring up a lot lately due to stress and the fact that most of my neighbours smoke.
Then I learned that SN itself could be an issue. The thread/post I looked at contained some inaccurate information – they were saying your throat closes up during an attack. In my experience this has never happened, it's only my lungs that flare up.
But they were saying that studies have been shown that nitrites make asthma worse, and this is from eating cured meats.
I could risk it and just take the SN but if I do have an asthma attack I'd have to take my inhaler and the steroids make your heart beat faster, at which point I'd probably have a heart attack with that plus the SN.
I'm fed up, frustrated and I just want to die already.
I should have just saved money for N like I was going to, now I'm out of pocket with no result and it could still get seized anyway.
I'm just going to save up and risk it with N. I hope D is reliable and I hope he's still around in 2/3 months time when I'll be able to afford it. If I get caught I'll just have to plead with them to send me to a mental health ward rather than prison.
Then I learned that SN itself could be an issue. The thread/post I looked at contained some inaccurate information – they were saying your throat closes up during an attack. In my experience this has never happened, it's only my lungs that flare up.
But they were saying that studies have been shown that nitrites make asthma worse, and this is from eating cured meats.
I could risk it and just take the SN but if I do have an asthma attack I'd have to take my inhaler and the steroids make your heart beat faster, at which point I'd probably have a heart attack with that plus the SN.
I'm fed up, frustrated and I just want to die already.
I should have just saved money for N like I was going to, now I'm out of pocket with no result and it could still get seized anyway.
I'm just going to save up and risk it with N. I hope D is reliable and I hope he's still around in 2/3 months time when I'll be able to afford it. If I get caught I'll just have to plead with them to send me to a mental health ward rather than prison.
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