SN arrived and i don't know when i need to use it

[tobby rabbit]

It's here. I would do it right know but first of all i need to gift all of the things i owed. The problem is my friends and family are buying me stuff and i feel bad for accepting it because i wouldn't need it if I'm gone.
At first i was rejecting but now i really want things that i have never had before. Am i selfish for that? I have bought something myself too but i thought i would save the money i earned to give it to my family.
Yes, i am selfish. I will give it all back when im done but now i really wanna live my best.
I will work on my suicide notes and think things through. My mom's birthday is on 27th of September and my best friend celebrating on 12th October. I don't want them to associate my death with their birthday, so i will try to die on the first days of September

 

[Lulzacruel]

I don't want them to associate my death with their birthday, so i will try to die on the first days of September

then do it on the first days of september if you want

at this point its too late to think about selfishness, its a bullshit concept

if you love your family then maybe celebrate with them and spend more time discretely as people know when you are planning something if you are being too obvious

 

[Sweet Tart]

It sounds like you are being generous and thoughtful with your loved ones, not selfish. You deserve to spend your time and money in ways that are meaningful to you; as you say, living your best, writing your notes, and anything else that feels right.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't really think you sound selfish at all but anyway I wish you the best with your plans.

 

[TheMetalhead]

Wanting the peace you deserve is not selfish.
I hope you reach that peace at last..

 

[etrnllxid]

It's here. I would do it right know but first of all i need to gift all of the things i owed. The problem is my friends and family are buying me stuff and i feel bad for accepting it because i wouldn't need it if I'm gone.
At first i was rejecting but now i really want things that i have never had before. Am i selfish for that? I have bought something myself too but i thought i would save the money i earned to give it to my family.
Yes, i am selfish. I will give it all back when im done but now i really wanna live my best.
I will work on my suicide notes and think things through. My mom's birthday is on 27th of September and my best friend celebrating on 12th October. I don't want them to associate my death with their birthday, so i will try to die on the first days of September

Do you think you could pm me ur source? I'm still looking for SN after I ordered antiemetics.

 

[tobby rabbit]

Do you think you could pm me ur source? I'm still looking for SN after I ordered antiemetics.

Well, i can, but i live in Russia