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Captain laser

Captain laser

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Mar 17, 2026
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every time i talk with my friends and they crack a joke, before i wouldve laughed and joked along, now it just fills me with anger and sadness and makes me isolate myself, i keep assuming the worst possible meaning from everything they say and getting defensive, i feel like im ruining my own life.
 
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HeyBoogahJr

HeyBoogahJr

I'm still here.
Apr 25, 2026
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Why does it fill you with anger and sadness?

Why assume the worst?

Are they still friends if you don't seem to get along with them?
 
endboss

endboss

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Apr 8, 2026
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every time i talk with my friends and they crack a joke, before i wouldve laughed and joked along, now it just fills me with anger and sadness and makes me isolate myself, i keep assuming the worst possible meaning from everything they say and getting defensive, i feel like im ruining my own life.
Sounds like you might be experiencing paranoia. I don't want to intrude, but do you smoke weed often? That's what triggered my paranoia when I was younger.. I had the exact same feelings and I became very defensive even though my friends were just making jokes and never wanted to hurt me.
 

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