bratishka
Member
- Apr 11, 2026
- 6
i have been making slight improvements the last month and it so odd. over the winter, i was consistently psychotic and apparently ended up doing and saying things that frightened and disturbed my sister, who i love more than anything in the world and i cannot begin to explain how much she means to me, and she sent me an email explaining she is distancing herself from me and that was devastating. there is no time frame for the distancing and the whole situation seems rather vague. however, i started making art again and going to the library almost daily, i have been going to my friend's potluck on sundays and talking on dating apps. i actually got a woman's phone number today and that is amazing to me because i am functionally homosexual (i think i like women but have never had any idea what to do about it and never expected to meet a girl so i just date guys because i like them too and it is easier) and have never been good at talking to women, like i have never even seen a vulva in real life. this woman is very sweet, she likes thrifting and reading and compliments my drawings and she is just strikingly pretty. i still have dips and even feel suicidal but these little improvements are proving to be a decent source of happiness in my weird life. i did not expect this kind of thing to actually happen. it is all just so odd.
