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Jun 26, 2022
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The closer I get, the more erratic I'm feeling. It seems my SI is generating a huge amount of anxiety. Or maybe it's my SI creating the extreme anxiety.

How do I make this stop? I am having daily panic attacks. My emotions are all over the place. I'm crying multiple times a day.

Is this normal??

I'm experiencing so much anguish.
 
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MrDarkness

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i have no plan on attempting as of this moment
Jun 18, 2023
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From my personal experience it's just from the stress of going to ctb, that causes it, its natural, as your body doesn't wish to die, though it also means your not thinking clearly which can lead to impulse, the way I found to help is just by listening to music or watching stuff to keep me distracted
 
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MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

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Try getting wasted on hard liquor.
 
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Jun 26, 2022
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From my personal experience it's just from the stress of going to ctb, that causes it, its natural, as your body doesn't wish to die, though it also means your not thinking clearly which can lead to impulse, the way I found to help is just by listening to music or watching stuff to keep me distracted
Thank you, Darkness. I really appreciate your input 💜 l will try to calm myself more.
 
The Schizoid

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Oct 24, 2023
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Thank you, Darkness. I really appreciate your input 💜 l will try to calm myself more.

The only thing that would help me in your situation is thoroughly researching the method and find one which will present the littlest amount of pain.

But my hope is that you will find peace and not need to CTB.
 

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