Goth_tt_B
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- Jan 20, 2025
- 14
I was in the shower and of course my mind ended up on Tony. I feel like I read a headline about a murder suicide earlier in the day. Longing to cease existence at times, was spoken about between us like a normal topic. So it reminded me about one time I half joked he would have to do it for me because I'm too scared to mess up again and we could murder suicide. I remember him finding it so romantic and very seemingly down to if I did. I said something along the lines of calling him stupid because why would you end yourself over a girl, especially since at that point we had not met in person yet. He of course didn't see it as that. He found it so romantic that I would be willing to do it with him. I understood him and agreed, but also didn't because it's still doing it at my will even if you were willing to prior to me.
But, it made me think about two lovers. A different timeline of Tony and I. Ones who were somehow able to hold out a little longer to really be together. Everything else the same.
The two finally united lovers, still yearned to leave this existence and knew that of the other. They had this essentially unspoken pact of catching the bus once the other shared that they were ready to purchase a ticket(s). Which weirdly made them fall for eachother harder.
They go day by day with the misery of the world on their minds thinking they've had enough and want to go. But now? They get to spend their miserable days together. They get to have those thoughts while being elated to be able to see and touch their partners face whenever they please. But because of that, both lovers silently refuse to tell the other that they're ready to leave earth, due to not wanting to make the other feel pressured.
So they go day by day, year by year, keeping it to themselves while enjoying one another's company until eventually they have lived a lifetime in each other's love. A love that absentmindedly made them outlive what brought them together..
Just needed to jot down a shower thought and don't want this saved on my phone or written down so feel free to ignore lol
But, it made me think about two lovers. A different timeline of Tony and I. Ones who were somehow able to hold out a little longer to really be together. Everything else the same.
The two finally united lovers, still yearned to leave this existence and knew that of the other. They had this essentially unspoken pact of catching the bus once the other shared that they were ready to purchase a ticket(s). Which weirdly made them fall for eachother harder.
They go day by day with the misery of the world on their minds thinking they've had enough and want to go. But now? They get to spend their miserable days together. They get to have those thoughts while being elated to be able to see and touch their partners face whenever they please. But because of that, both lovers silently refuse to tell the other that they're ready to leave earth, due to not wanting to make the other feel pressured.
So they go day by day, year by year, keeping it to themselves while enjoying one another's company until eventually they have lived a lifetime in each other's love. A love that absentmindedly made them outlive what brought them together..
Just needed to jot down a shower thought and don't want this saved on my phone or written down so feel free to ignore lol
