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cat0boy

cat0boy

misanthropic final boss
Jan 7, 2026
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i'm still in school (hs since im 18) and even though i could do wtv i want with my life i js wanna leave the house one night and maybe js die of starvation or whatever happens to me. so i have some sort of freedom for a while with where i go and what i do, then i also have the freedom to choose how it ends.
 
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SufferingDev

SufferingDev

this.dispose();
Aug 4, 2024
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I think only person who knows if it's time is you. What are your problems based on?
 
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cat0boy

cat0boy

misanthropic final boss
Jan 7, 2026
20
I think only person who knows if it's time is you. What are your problems based on?
i really don't want a future. a lot of things go wrong for me, im starting to lose all of my friends slowly, im ugly, i have no skills, i have a short temper, im scared i could lose my bf at any minute, my parents arent the best ppl & neglected raising me properly my whole life, etc.

the thing that really gets to me is the fact i don't have the will to be alive, i feel like its too hard and i dont know why. everything is too much for me and i smoke to make it feel less overwhelming but my plug cut me off. now everything is just too much.

ive always wanted to die and ive never had the drive to do anything w my life. its kind of pointless staying around if im just going to feel like shit anyway, nothing makes me happy and the only shit that does is stuff like weed thats js going to run out anyway.
 
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moralfag

chronic suicidist
Nov 5, 2025
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i smoke to make it feel less overwhelming but my plug cut me off. now everything is just too much.
Have you tried ordering online? I know weed won't fix much but reading some of your other posts it seems to make life a bit more tolerable for you. If you're able to order online I wouldn't mind messaging you a few sites that don't ID. I hope things get better for you.
 
cat0boy

cat0boy

misanthropic final boss
Jan 7, 2026
20
ive heard about that before but at the same time i cant get anything delivered, my mother has cameras installed outside our house and if she saw it getting delivered she would 100% get to it before i do
 
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moralfag

moralfag

chronic suicidist
Nov 5, 2025
28
ive heard about that before but at the same time i cant get anything delivered, my mother has cameras installed outside our house and if she saw it getting delivered she would 100% get to it before i do
Would shipping it to a local post office work? I used to do that when I was a teen. I'm not sure what your home life is like though, so sneaking to the post office could be hard lol. Best wishes regardless.
 
cat0boy

cat0boy

misanthropic final boss
Jan 7, 2026
20
Would shipping it to a local post office work? I used to do that when I was a teen. I'm not sure what your home life is like though, so sneaking to the post office could be hard lol. Best wishes regardless.
i try to think of every possibility but it sucks, i live more in the countryside, town is very far and i cant drive bc im too scared to take the test. i was most likely going to see if one of my friends could receive it, though. thank you
 
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chaibea

chaibea

New Member
Jan 20, 2026
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i'm still in school (hs since im 18) and even though i could do wtv i want with my life i js wanna leave the house one night and maybe js die of starvation or whatever happens to me. so i have some sort of freedom for a while with where i go and what i do, then i also have the freedom to choose how it ends.
Honestly, no. High chance someone else will get to you first
 

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