should i ctb over a breakup?

[nancyboy]

No prefix bc I dunno which one this would fall under. But I got broken up with yesterday after seven months of a relationship I thought was the final one. Now I'm realizing that maybe I'm meant to die alone. And now, for the first time in a while, I'm almost 100% positive I want to take my life. Everyone around me is begging for me not to, including my ex. But it feels like the only way out. The only thing that made any sense to me was when one of my biggest exes texted me. She was genuienly so nice to me, and made me think that maybe there's more to my life than this relationship. But at the same time, I'm so mentally wrecked that I want out of it. I have bpd and they were my fp, so it's 10 fold.

I guess I'm looking for someone to give their perspective on this all. Any and all words are appreciated. I just need someone who isn't in my mind to tell me anything

 

[DeadNotSleeping]

Short answer is absolutely not.

Having a single person have that much say in whether you live or die is absurd. There was a time before this person was in your life, and due to the breakup there will be a time after. It'll take some time to get over for sure, but you will eventually be able to get over it. I hate the cliche of "time heals all wounds" most of the time I think it's a load of shit. However in the case with breakups I do actually think some time away not thinking about them is good and will help.

You'll get through this, just need to see it through.

 

[Adûnâi]

Wait an actual physical relationship, with hugs and kisses?

 

[voir2]

You should not kill yourself over a 7 months relationship.