Discussion Should I call my partner before I ctb?

[undecidedfool]

I'm caught on whether or not to call my partner before I eat a bullet. He's going to know what's going on right away, but I just want to tell him goodbye. I think some sick part of me also wants to know that someone cares enough to want a call.
On the other hand, it's going to be a hell of a hard call, and I don't know if I'll be able to hang up.
I have my plan, likely for today if I don't chicken out. This is just one thing I don't know.
Any thoughts?

 

[JustHere1]

I would not do this. But a middle ground would be leaving a voice message on your phone or a written letter. It may also endanger you if you do or don't attempt.

 

[undecidedfool]

I would not do this. But a middle ground would be leaving a voice message on your phone or a written letter. It may also endanger you if you do or don't attempt.

Thank you for the advice. I think I may have to go with a voice message if I'm not too emotional. Then he can at least hear me say I love him

 

[JustHere1]

You can record one or a few messages by voice in advance if that would help! You can delay-send an email with them attached to say as much as you feel you need to.

 

[HeartThatFeeds]

As someone who has had the personal experience of hearing my partner die on the other end of the phone, I will say I would probably not have as much closure if I never did call him, I got to know I was there for him in his last moments, and although he never said goodbye to as we both thought he was going to make it, knowing that I at least was there comforting him on the other end of the phone is something I will never regret, of course there is a chance you might back out from it because you feel guilty, but I couldn't imagine not being there on that call, waiting and hoping through text that he was still alive, it would hurt me more than I could imagine