Venting she is fine without me, but im not, so i need to ctb.

[lovelulu]

My FP is totally fine without me during the if we dont talk at all or we're dry. It's obvious to me that she doesn't really care if we talk or not—and it makes me seem like a fool and retarded. Im not trying to make it seem like shes the one in the wrong whatsoever, just that if I can't handle being away from her—then my only solution is death. That's the only way I can truly leave her alone. I feel bad for her, having to deal with someone who won't even let you have alone time. Truly, I need to fucking kill myself already. I have the materials, I believe I will be doing it soon. She'll finally be away from me soon.