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bestbeforetomorrow

bestbeforetomorrow

i am not a 'who', Archivist, i am a 'what' she/it
Jul 27, 2023
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I got better. i truly did, i didnt have an attempt for a long time and kinda went into recovery. so, i decided to get a semicolon tattoo. A genius one if you let me brag about it. It says "CTB don't seem effective;"
CBT dont seem effective for that cluster B, accept it
is a lyric from OKULTRA - BlackBoxWarrior (Ideas Only Spread Because People Like Them, the "Free Market of Ideas" is not a Meritocracy, it's a Set of Unhealthy Coping Skills and a Corporate Oligarchy, Wake Up, Man! Don't Let the Lies Dim Your Light! anyway this one's black box warrior (2024 edit)) by Will Wood, and you already know what ctb means (yeah, i have to explain it to everyone around me lol), but lately some bad shit happened and im not sure if i deserve it now since im thinking about ctb again. What are your thoughts? i was extremely hesitant to get it for that exact reason.
 
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waistcoat

waistcoat

wow, i have a lot of people to disappoint :o
Aug 10, 2024
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a semicolon means you chose to continue on at that moment; it doesn't mean you chose to continue forever, that's what a period is for.

poetics aside, don't feel guilty, you deserve the tattoo for going into recovery, even if that didn't pan out in the long run - though i hope it does.
 
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bestbeforetomorrow

i am not a 'who', Archivist, i am a 'what' she/it
Jul 27, 2023
36
a semicolon means you chose to continue on at that moment; it doesn't mean you chose to continue forever, that's what a period is for.

poetics aside, don't feel guilty, you deserve the tattoo for going into recovery, even if that didn't pan out in the long run - though i hope it does.
Thank you so much <3 im probably still could consider myself in recovery since i dont have actual plans to ctb, only thoughts and sh came back (for now? i hope ill get better again)
 
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waistcoat

wow, i have a lot of people to disappoint :o
Aug 10, 2024
432
Thank you so much <3 im probably still could consider myself in recovery since i dont have actual plans to ctb, only thoughts and sh came back (for now? i hope ill get better again)
i wish you the best of luck in recovery<3 you sound really strong
 
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viljalauss

he/they 22
Aug 22, 2023
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will wood mention!! you 100% deserve it
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
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At one point things were going so good I had seriously considered it. I was so proud of myself. Like really proud! I may have jinxed it because here i am :) you should be proud of yourself when you look at it, remember that you did well, it's not easy choosing life.
 
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