BoredNTired
Wants to sleep for a good long while
- Sep 30, 2024
- 1
I've been planning to CTB for a little while now, and around the time I started planning it i've also started SH-ing. I've had no problem with basic cuts or bruising, but recently as a test of how much i really cared about myself, I tried cutting off a toe and found myself completely unable too besides barely drawing blood. Does self mutilation really sit at a line past CTB? Is that basic self preservation instict something I should work to get past if I can say I really want to die? I don't want to die a coward, I need to know I mean it, so why does dying feel easier than a toe? Is it just instinct I shouldn't worry about, or indicitive of a deeper cowardice?