schizoaffective disorder is like pure hell

[leap_from_life]

I live with it for few years, my doctor once said that I could be perfectly healthy if I wasn't physically and psychically abused since I was born. I'm ruined from the start, been hospitalised, tried most of meds possible, had few therapists. I barely leave my room since 2021, can't even work with my mood swings, obviously i have no one since i moved on to another country. I feel so trapped in this life. I'm sorry, I just wanted to tell this to someone:(

 

[aitouka]

Don't be sorry :) you can tell everything here. You couldn't change the abuse even if you wanted, so I know it's terribly difficult to get over and please don't blame yourself for being incapable right now. You have us here. I'm not going to say 'it will get better' because even to me that sounds like false hope, but I simply wish you the best.

 

[leap_from_life]

Don't be sorry :) you can tell everything here. You couldn't change the abuse even if you wanted, so I know it's terribly difficult to get over and please don't blame yourself for being incapable right now. You have us here. I'm not going to say 'it will get better' because even to me that sounds like false hope, but I simply wish you the best.

I honestly love our community, thank you for kind words, it means a lot to me

 

[Abandoned Character]

moving to another country is incredible, I can't imagine the difficulties that come with that. godspeed

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really horrible what you have to go through and it must be really tiring feeling trapped in that situation. I hate how we exist in a world where people suffer so much all through no fault of their own, I really do believe that people shouldn't procreate in the first place as it would had prevented all human torture.

 

[Blackroom_57]

I have the same thing. My brain is falling apart and everyday is a nightmare. Looking forward to killing myself. I have no future.

 

[deathbydragon]

Hi fellow cluster A sufferer
Szpd here, not much better.

 

[leap_from_life]

Hi fellow cluster A sufferer
Szpd here, not much better.

All schizo spectrum disorders are just like worst nightmare. Stay strong!