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Ednospatient

Arcanist
Sep 2, 2021
408
Hey guys, it's been a while. I'm doing a little bit better. But I'm still planning to CTB when the time is right. I'm scared however.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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Being scared about ctb is human and is normal, don't be too worried about it! I wish you the best!
 
Miscreated

Miscreated

Human in form, but not in essence
Jul 17, 2023
102
I don't think you should ctb if you're not ready yet. If you're talking about SI however, I recommend exposing yourself to more ctb-related content so you become desensitized to the idea of ctb, and asking yourself what exactly it is about ctb that scares you so much, so that way you can address your fears properly. I guess if you were very desperate, you could use drugs, but I personally wouldn't do this because I want to be able to ctb while in a rational state of mind, and I'd worry that drugs would interfere with this
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,258
It must be tiring and awful dealing with fears for what could lie ahead but anyway I wish you the best with your plans, I think that having fears related to suicide certainly is understandable as after all it's not straightforward to finally be free from everything.
 

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