
jay_y
Psychiatry takes lives
- Feb 17, 2025
- 27
I have read threads about a plane of existence on the other side, that is backed up by people having NDE, and all having similar experiences, like going out of their body, even seeing their body, and entering that specific realm that might exist with this one but its invisible...the majority had positive experiences, only those who were agressive/harbouring bad emotions or had a very painful exist(like a very anguished ctb) had experienced something extremely terrifying.
If the things in my life that I had no control over, made me be extremely anguished, even agressive, because of constant torture that I can not stop(extreme physical pain caused by muscles malfunctioning that I can not treat with anything, caused by abnormal and rare reaction to psych meds, you can read more on my profile), how can I at least reach a peaceful end?? My soul is crushed from the trauma of my own body torturing me and that kind of death(ctb) makes my heart hurt even more. But if I stay alive it will be the same result. I don't understand what I am supposed to do, what I should do to not prolong my suffering on the other side. I am scared of the other side. I am scared of everything, of this life and the other one. I just don't want to be hurt anymore.
I wished I wanted to die like many people here, but I do not. I am just not allowed to live and I don't know how to accept having to exit before I lose my mind completely. I wish I could find a way to exist in a way but I see no way. I am tired tired and traumatised. I just want to fade away while I'm sleeping, not hurting anyone and to not be aware of this happening. The only thing I wanted in this world was to have a natural death, but that is far away as I am only 20. I hate that I am not allowed to live.
If the things in my life that I had no control over, made me be extremely anguished, even agressive, because of constant torture that I can not stop(extreme physical pain caused by muscles malfunctioning that I can not treat with anything, caused by abnormal and rare reaction to psych meds, you can read more on my profile), how can I at least reach a peaceful end?? My soul is crushed from the trauma of my own body torturing me and that kind of death(ctb) makes my heart hurt even more. But if I stay alive it will be the same result. I don't understand what I am supposed to do, what I should do to not prolong my suffering on the other side. I am scared of the other side. I am scared of everything, of this life and the other one. I just don't want to be hurt anymore.
I wished I wanted to die like many people here, but I do not. I am just not allowed to live and I don't know how to accept having to exit before I lose my mind completely. I wish I could find a way to exist in a way but I see no way. I am tired tired and traumatised. I just want to fade away while I'm sleeping, not hurting anyone and to not be aware of this happening. The only thing I wanted in this world was to have a natural death, but that is far away as I am only 20. I hate that I am not allowed to live.
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