I would like to try to avoid anything that involves suffocating. Drowning, hanging, etc. I can't stand the feeling of losing oxygen, as it is I already have great trouble breathing. Also, I tested hanging a few times this last week and started to feel my eyeballs bulge from my skull before anything else happened. I was probably doing it wrong but now I think I'm put off that for good.
I just dont have access to anything preferable so I'm beggining to get very desperate as I get worse and worse. I haven't been on this site for awhile but am back on now because I really need to get this over and done with. I wish the success of certain methods were guaranteed, as of now, there's a horror story for just about every method and dying in of itself is difficult enough. I can't afford to end up as a vegetable. The only thing keeping me in existence now is that I can hide myself from everyone, I would lose that if I became physically dependent or brain dead. I would lose the last piece of control. Just thinking about that possibility is enough to trigger a pure insanity filled breakdown of the mind.
I can't believe we live in a world where some people are given such hard lives and yet equally as hard outlets to end said lives.
This is why so many of us get stuck between a rock and a hard place.