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ventingfrustrations

ventingfrustrations

Student
Mar 4, 2025
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I'm scared but I don't know i don't know I'm a monster but it's over I want to die I need to see it I don't want to die but I can't live like this anymore I'm a monster
I was mentally ill for 12 years
I couldn't stop myself even when I knew it was wrong
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
831
Shotgun suicide is very gory, especially if you shoot into head.
 
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ventingfrustrations

ventingfrustrations

Student
Mar 4, 2025
184
I just never thought about it
Like I thought it would be fine but then I saw a depiction
I know I know but like it sucks
I just want it to be quick
 
KillingPain267

KillingPain267

Visionary
Apr 15, 2024
2,086
Have you seen videos of it? I've watched so many that it doesn't bother me anymore. But I don't want my family seeing it, even if I had access to shotguns, so I choose chemical methods.
 
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wham311

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2025
1,201
I'm scared but I don't know i don't know I'm a monster but it's over I want to die I need to see it I don't want to die but I can't live like this anymore I'm a monster
I was mentally ill for 12 years
I couldn't stop myself even when I knew it was wrong
What happened friend
 
FrozenOcean

FrozenOcean

…oh bother
Mar 21, 2025
75
I've seen one too. I'm still in shock and it's been like 3 years since, can't unsee it.
 
Danby

Danby

Just remember that the last laugh is on you
Aug 13, 2024
74
I'm at the point where I don't care anymore how gory it is. I want it quick.
 
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HollowCreek

HollowCreek

Member
Apr 3, 2025
44
I'm scared but I don't know i don't know I'm a monster but it's over I want to die I need to see it I don't want to die but I can't live like this anymore I'm a monster
I was mentally ill for 12 years
I couldn't stop myself even when I knew it was wrong

There's no reason for anyone but authorities to see it. There's no reason to do it at home. Go somewhere else and do it. Like the woods for example.
 
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wham311

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2025
1,201
The woods is just someone's backyard, you're not going to have much time there and it's someone's property
 
_Maya

_Maya

Maybe tomorrow.
Jan 26, 2025
143
Firearms generally are going to be messy and gory, best case scenario would be to use a smaller firearm with a smaller caliber.
9x19 is a good handgun round, it'll still be messy with blood, but it won't completely make your face unrecognizable.
You could go with smaller rounds like .32 acp but anything else like .22 long rifle has a small chance of you surviving.
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,598
Where's the picture? Got an image to share including the source?
 
WrathfulGloom32

WrathfulGloom32

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Oct 12, 2024
1,167
Where's the picture? Got an image to share including the source?
Well I can try to explain from what I've seen, it varies because shotguns use a big caliber and various types of ammunition and the way the pellets are release depend on the distance, usually they blow you up and your face blooms like a flower. It literally splits your face up like a flower but again it can vary.
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,598
Well I can try to explain from what I've seen, it varies because shotguns use a big caliber and various types of ammunition and the way the pellets are release depend on the distance, usually they blow you up and your face blooms like a flower. It literally splits your face up like a flower but again it can vary.
I know what shotguns can do. There are real photos available on the web if you search them out. I'm just curious how this artist conceptualizes it might look like. Was it a realism painting or abstract?
 
WrathfulGloom32

WrathfulGloom32

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Oct 12, 2024
1,167
I know what shotguns can do. There are real photos available on the web if you search them out. I'm just curious how this artist conceptualizes it might look like. Was it a realism painting or abstract?
Aaaaah, I don't know how to read, oops. I didn't see the artists image , I did search for depictions of it in art when I first typed the comment but found nothing of note other than generic stuff.
 

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