Venting Sat in a lay-by thinking of walking into traffic

[M48 Patton]

I keep thinking about waiting for a lorry to come by, i feel this impulsiveness is what will get me to commit. If i time
It right I can get one without a car behind it. Just worried about being crushed rather than instantly taken out.

I'm sorry I know this is a selfish thing to think about but I just can't get a more peaceful end.

 

[Jabbawocky]

I'll be honest, I drove down the M42/A42 this morning and it had been closed on the opposite side.

Saw a police car in a lay by with another car thinking they had just been pulled. But further on they closed the road and there was a lump with a bloody sheet draped over it.

I can't say for sure what happened but I think we can guess. I wasn't involved and that absolutely traumatised me seeing. I dread to think what the driver is thinking. Please don't bring innocent people into it and consider something else

 

[Ash]

I know you're really struggling but please don't do this. There's no guarantee that it will actually succeed and there is a good chance that you will cause a crash, possibly causing injuries (maybe life changing) or death to the lorry driver and other drivers, not to mention long term mental trauma to the survivors, witnesses, and people involved in the clean up.

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[M48 Patton]

I'm just so desperate, my health is ruined, physical and mental. I'm going to loose my family and friends if I stay alive because I can't keep up with trying to pretend I'm well
i just want it over. I keep having these break downs. My life is over but I can't seem to end it. I just want something easy and painless. I wish I could just ingest some N or anything quick and easy.
I'm not a bad person. I'm just really tired of this never ending cycle.

 

[Jabbawocky]

I feel your pain buddy. I'm sure we all do. I hope you find a method and peace that you deserve. But for the innocent people that then have to go through it, it isn't fair on them.