relapsing, anxiety and longing

[f1lth]

I havent self harmed in a very long time, the idea of it makes me very anxious now which makes me sad lol. I used to do it so much and im covered in scars. I miss doing it, a lot. But the idea of someone i know seeing fresh cuts and saying something, or even not saying anything, fills me with so much anxiety. I sometimes bruise myself or scratch myself, but its not as great as cutting. I just drink a lot now.

 

[Silent Raindrops]

I'm with you on the drinking part. My drinking has gotten so bad these past few years.

 

[dybydxxtothe4sec3x]

The "harm reduction" just doesn't cut it for me either lol.

I totally get the bit about anxiety too, having to endure another rant or lecture or "are you okay??" is so aggravating.

Well done on staying clean tho that takes a lot of strength.