Relapse after 3 months.. I'm done

[blvck]

I quit cold Turkey and even got help for my addiction, but I relapsed again after 3 months. I just think I will never recover from this. I'm tired of fighting. I just want to die now.... I'm done. Whatever happens after I'm gone isn't my fault. I can't take this anymore.

 

[FuneralCry]

It does sound tiring what you are going through and it must be hard to deal with. It's understandable just wanting to rest. It really can be so awful having to endure a life that is just constant suffering. I wish you the best.

 

[Life_and_Death]

sadly its very rare one just walks away from an addiction. thats why theres support groups. it takes a little bit at a time. i certainly wont disagree that its very discouraging and makes you wonder why youre bothering..

 

[lifeORdeath]

Some places have long term programs that are paid for up front. And you have to check yourself in for long time. And work to pay them back when you are cleared. I have never been in one, but know of them.

I know it doesn't sound pleasant but might be an option. Sorry you are prisoner tia substance. I am afraid that my psych may have made me dependent on a legal substance, and it's not fun either.