Regrets, tired of pretending to be ok

[hellispink]

regrets haunt me every night before i go to bed
They say hi when i wake up in the morning
My eyes say it all, I haven't sleep much today, or in years? I think one, two, three, twenty times before i put my feet in the cold floor, then i regret my existence, like I did last night. I regret then living a lie, which has to end, will it ever end? It gets harder to pretend, harder to fake, a smile, something I cannot longer portrait. Why is it all this effort is death is coming anyway. Regrets live within me because i wish i could have done better, or maybe there was no way i could have done better. What a cruel existence, can i even regret it, if i didnt choose it? My soul is tired, tired of pretending

 

[LoiteringClouds]

Sorry for your situation. I pretend as if everything is ok, too, but in my case I don't think I could have done it better. I have had no options but putting a fake smile on my face.
If you are comfortable about opening up, please tell me if you think you can improve your situation. Or are things just beyond repair?
I don't know much about you but I wish you the best anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing certainly can be painful and of course it can be so incredibly tiring feeling trapped here. Of course I do believe that there is no real relief from suffering in this hellish world.

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

I think everyone has regrets about the past choices or inaction etc.

Theres nothing we can do now.

Such is life, im sorry though i 100% relate.