NSFW Registro em Vídeo, CTB com SN

[Ethereal Knight]

thank you for the documentation! that was very helpful!

I hope she is resting in peace.

the fact that she didn't take anti-emetic, used a lot of water and used a brand that is only 95% pure (instead of 99%), show how effective SN is.

SN is very, very effective.

the fact that she took a second dose even without vomiting shows how decided she was.

but she was so young... I can imagine how much pain she was in, for her to do it while being so young and beautiful... while being, in theory, at her peak peformance (21 years old)...
was she depressed? what were her motives? does someone know?
I know this probably ain't gonna be answered, as even the OP is not with us anymore...

btw, I saw @user398417 CTB video you guys posted and, wow, it was violent. I wouldn't ever use that violent method. I'm surprised he decided to use it despite knowing that there are peaceful options available - like SN. I really wonder why he chose that instead of SN. does anyone know? I may be wrong, but I think if anyone had SN and a rope, almost everyone would choose SN.
seeing that video almost makes me want to delay my CTB as much as possible, even though I've been decided and planning it for years. that was an ugly scene.
sorry but the link should be between spoilers with a trigger warning, by the way. a mod should probably edit that link to add spoilers.

and yes, SN is peaceful. at least way more peaceful than many methods like hanging, jumping etc). I'm also surprised people are complaining about having to wait 20-40 minutes. you just wait and do nothing. you lie down in bed and relax. that's not so different from what we do everyday anyway...

every method is gonna have its downsides. even N tastes very bad, is super expensive and super hard to find. if you don't want to be alone with your thoughts for 20 minutes before you pass out, I can understand it, but in the past people had to go through much more horrible things in order to CTB. SN is a walk in the park compared to what people used to do and still do (because of lack of information or availability of peaceful methods) all over the world.

Spoiler: Português

obrigado por documentar e relatar o caso!

espeero q ela esteja descansando em paz.

o fato de ela não ter usado anti-emético, usado muita água (em vez de pouca) e usado uma marca q tem 95% de pureza (em vez de 99%), mostra o quão efetivo o SN é.

SN é muito, muito eficiente.

o fato de ela ter tomado uma segunda dose, mostra o quanto ela estava decidida.

mas ela era tão jovem... consigo imaginar o quanto de dor ela estava sentindo, pra ela fazer isso tão jovem e bonita, numa fase da vida q teoricamente é o auge (21 anos de idade)...

ela estava deprimida? quais eram os motivos dela? alguém sabe? isso provavelmente não será respondido, visto q o criador do tópico não está mais conosco...

por sinal, eu vi o vídeo do CTB do user398417 e, caraca, foi violento. eu jamais usaria um método violento desses. fico surpreso q ela tenha decidido por esse método mesmo sabendo q existem opções mais pacíficas, como SN. por que será que ele não escolheu SN? posso estar errado, mas acho que se alguém tivesse opção entre SN e corda, quase todos iriam escolher SN...

ver esse vídeo quase me faz querer atrasar meu CTB o máximo possível, mesmo eu tendo decidido e planejado por anos. aquela foi uma cena feia.

e sim, respondendo a alguns da thread, SN é pacífico. pelo menos bem mais pacífico q outros métodos, como enforcamento, pular de prédios, ser atropelado por trens etc...
também fico surpreso por ver pessoas reclamando de ter q esperar 20-40 minutos. eu só esperaria e não faria nada. deitaria e relaxaria. simples. não é tão diferente do q eu já faço todos os dias...

todo método terá seus lados ruins. até N tem gosto ruim, é super caro e super difícil de encontrar. se vc não quer ficar sozinho com seus próprios pensamentos por 20 minutos, eu entendo, mas eu também sei q no passado as pessoas aguentavam coisas muito piores pra conseguir CTB. ainda aguentam hoje, na falta de informações ou de disponibilidade de métodos pacíficos. perto de outros métodos mais violentos e arriscados (métodos com risco de haver sequela permanente por exemplo), SN é moleza. pelo menos na minha opinião.

 

[mandyjohnuk]

The video has been removed as it says for violating there terms.

 

[Kyuss]

The video has been removed as it says for violating there terms.

Some of the links still work, i just watched it to make sure.

 

[houseofleaves]

SN is a walk in the park compared to what people used to do and still do (because of lack of information or availability of peaceful methods) all over the world.

++++++++++

 

[mandyjohnuk]

Some of the links still work, i just watched it to make sure.

Do you have a link that works.

 

[Kyuss]

Do you have a link that works.

There are links in pastebin that work

 

[mandyjohnuk]

Have you a link in pastebin. Can't see any such link. Thanks.

 

[Shu]

thank you for the documentation! that was very helpful!

I hope she is resting in peace.

the fact that she didn't take anti-emetic, used a lot of water and used a brand that is only 95% pure (instead of 99%), show how effective SN is.

SN is very, very effective.

the fact that she took a second dose even without vomiting shows how decided she was.

but she was so young... I can imagine how much pain she was in, for her to do it while being so young and beautiful... while being, in theory, at her peak peformance (21 years old)...
was she depressed? what were her motives? does someone know?
I know this probably ain't gonna be answered, as even the OP is not with us anymore...

btw, I saw @user398417 CTB video you guys posted and, wow, it was violent. I wouldn't ever use that violent method. I'm surprised he decided to use it despite knowing that there are peaceful options available - like SN. I really wonder why he chose that instead of SN. does anyone know? I may be wrong, but I think if anyone had SN and a rope, almost everyone would choose SN.
seeing that video almost makes me want to delay my CTB as much as possible, even though I've been decided and planning it for years. that was an ugly scene.
sorry but the link should be between spoilers with a trigger warning, by the way. a mod should probably edit that link to add spoilers.

and yes, SN is peaceful. at least way more peaceful than many methods like hanging, jumping etc). I'm also surprised people are complaining about having to wait 20-40 minutes. you just wait and do nothing. you lie down in bed and relax. that's not so different from what we do everyday anyway...

every method is gonna have its downsides. even N tastes very bad, is super expensive and super hard to find. if you don't want to be alone with your thoughts for 20 minutes before you pass out, I can understand it, but in the past people had to go through much more horrible things in order to CTB. SN is a walk in the park compared to what people used to do and still do (because of lack of information or availability of peaceful methods) all over the world.

Spoiler: Português

obrigado por documentar e relatar o caso!

espeero q ela esteja descansando em paz.

o fato de ela não ter usado anti-emético, usado muita água (em vez de pouca) e usado uma marca q tem 95% de pureza (em vez de 99%), mostra o quão efetivo o SN é.

SN é muito, muito eficiente.

o fato de ela ter tomado uma segunda dose, mostra o quanto ela estava decidida.

mas ela era tão jovem... consigo imaginar o quanto de dor ela estava sentindo, pra ela fazer isso tão jovem e bonita, numa fase da vida q teoricamente é o auge (21 anos de idade)...

ela estava deprimida? quais eram os motivos dela? alguém sabe? isso provavelmente não será respondido, visto q o criador do tópico não está mais conosco...

por sinal, eu vi o vídeo do CTB do user398417 e, caraca, foi violento. eu jamais usaria um método violento desses. fico surpreso q ela tenha decidido por esse método mesmo sabendo q existem opções mais pacíficas, como SN. por que será que ele não escolheu SN? posso estar errado, mas acho que se alguém tivesse opção entre SN e corda, quase todos iriam escolher SN...

ver esse vídeo quase me faz querer atrasar meu CTB o máximo possível, mesmo eu tendo decidido e planejado por anos. aquela foi uma cena feia.

e sim, respondendo a alguns da thread, SN é pacífico. pelo menos bem mais pacífico q outros métodos, como enforcamento, pular de prédios, ser atropelado por trens etc...
também fico surpreso por ver pessoas reclamando de ter q esperar 20-40 minutos. eu só esperaria e não faria nada. deitaria e relaxaria. simples. não é tão diferente do q eu já faço todos os dias...

todo método terá seus lados ruins. até N tem gosto ruim, é super caro e super difícil de encontrar. se vc não quer ficar sozinho com seus próprios pensamentos por 20 minutos, eu entendo, mas eu também sei q no passado as pessoas aguentavam coisas muito piores pra conseguir CTB. ainda aguentam hoje, na falta de informações ou de disponibilidade de métodos pacíficos. perto de outros métodos mais violentos e arriscados (métodos com risco de haver sequela permanente por exemplo), SN é moleza. pelo menos na minha opinião.

Holy fuck man. I just realized OP is the one who is in the article on the second page.There are videos and everything.

 

[deleted]

I wouldn't ever use that violent method. I'm surprised he decided to use it despite knowing that there are peaceful options available - like SN. I really wonder why he chose that instead of SN. does anyone know? I may be wrong, but I think if anyone had SN and a rope, almost everyone would choose SN.

I remember asking him why he would hang himself when there was SN, he said he was not afraid of suffering and that he needed to go through it

 

[Kyuss]

Holy fuck man. I just realized OP is the one who is in the article on the second page.There are videos and everything.

Which article i can't find it

 

[Ethereal Knight]

Holy fuck man. I just realized OP is the one who is in the article on the second page.There are videos and everything.

Which article i can't find it

yes. OP is gone. he used a violent method even though he knew SN.

the link has already been posted on this thread. I'm gonna repost just to answer your question.

do not click it if you don't want to see some disturbing graphic violent scene that has the potential do traumatize you.

Spoiler: Trigger Warning: graphic video of real suicide

IMAGENS FORTES! Homem amarra corda no pescoço e comete suicídio em passarela entre as avenidas Djalma Batista e Boulevard Álvaro Maia, Zona Centro-Sul de Manaus. VEJA VÍDEOS

Por volta das 22h30 da noite desta quarta-feira, 27, um homem que ainda não...

portaldozacarias.com.br

 

[Shu]

yes. OP is gone. he used a violent method even though he knew SN.

the link has already been posted on this thread. I'm gonna repost just to answer your question.

do not click it if you don't want to see some disturbing graphic violent scene that has the potential do traumatize you.

Spoiler: Trigger Warning: graphic video of real suicide

IMAGENS FORTES! Homem amarra corda no pescoço e comete suicídio em passarela entre as avenidas Djalma Batista e Boulevard Álvaro Maia, Zona Centro-Sul de Manaus. VEJA VÍDEOS

Por volta das 22h30 da noite desta quarta-feira, 27, um homem que ainda não...

portaldozacarias.com.br

I've spent time on gore sites so it wasn't traumatizing for me personally but just a bit upsetting and shocking especially since they are OP. At one point they are commenting next point there is a link with a video of them hanging from a bridge..

 

[Shu]

English Interpretation of the thread:

This thread is about the experience of @StrawberryPanic (21 years old) catching the bus by ingesting SN.
Her experience was recorded through a video call which took place the 1st of August from14:20 to 16:40.

The recording was sadly corrupted and the audio of the video was lost, so we can only learn from her physical expressions.

Videos:
Link - ControlC
Link2 - Pastebin

Timeline included on the video is self explanatory.
Timeline from preparation of SN to loss of consciousness:

00:00 Getting SN ready
03:32 Ingesting SN
03:38 Feeling a little bit sleepy
10:38 Claiming to feel some sore throat
10:47 Visible signs of paleness (hands and face)
11:00 Indications of body malfunctioning (pain, nausea, weakness)
11:20 Signs of physical weakness
12:15 Signs of nausea
12:20 Moderated symptoms of apnea
12:58 Keeps on experiencing the symptoms described above
13:50 Keeps on experiencing the symptoms described above
14:20 Visible signs of paleness through her whole skin
16:15 Keeps on experiencing the symptoms described above
17:10 Signs of Apnea
17:40 Light signs of dizziness
20:00 Sleepiness, weakness, apathy; proceeds to lie down on bed
22:00 Pain in throat (tachycardia)
24:00 conscious but deep breathing
24:20 feels cold
27:00 Intense sleepiness
28:08 Much more intense sleepiness; starts the loss of consciouness
30:00 Trouble concentrating, coldness, sleepy
31:00 Apathy, sleepiness, apnea, light loss of consciouness
32:00 Slow deep breathing
35:00 Marked paleness
40:00 Slight faintings
40:00 Paleness, hands numb and cold, fingers bluish
After that, she falls asleep / loses consciouness and the video-call was interrupbted by the cellphone dropping.

She took propranolol and was still awake for like 40 minutes. This still blows my mind. Where did someone see that her sn was only 95%?

was 95% purity laboratory use

How do you know?

 

[deleted]

How do you know?

She showed me a picture and the percentage was written on the package

 

[bloodycherry]

Existe algum tópico de pessoas do Brasil pra conversar?

 

[deleted]

Existe algum tópico de pessoas do Brasil pra conversar?

Tem sim

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/alguem-no-brasil.13741/page-78#post-1564154

 

[WanderingWater]

Important reminder...
The biology of shutting down the physical body is not a walk in the Park.

No matter which method is chosen, my body will fight back against my will to leave this physical plane.

There is absolutely no guide, report or method that escapes the physical repercussions of poisoning yourself.

Wether it's via palliative care or by your own volition. It's a messy ordeal.

 

[dredd1981]

Important reminder...
The biology of shutting down the physical body is not a walk in the Park.

No matter which method is chosen, my body will fight back against my will to leave this physical plane.

There is absolutely no guide, report or method that escapes the physical repercussions of poisoning yourself.

Wether it's via palliative care or by your own volition. It's a messy ordeal.

Ain't that the truth. It's a shame N is so hard to come by at present, it's definitely my preferred method. I'm going to buy SN in a week or two but I'm not giving up on getting N

 

[Ethereal Knight]

Spoiler: English translation

here's a music playlist that @StrawberryPanic made:



I'm almost crying as I listen to it. not because she is resting - that's good, but because the world is a terrible place, full of suffering and pain. this planet doesn't deserve to have good people like you living on it, Strawberry. you and I belong to another world - a better place, a shelter from this desolation. rest in peace!

I'll be joining you, so please save a seat for me on that bus!

aqui está uma playlist musical que a @StrawberryPanic fez:



eu estou quase chorando enquanto escuto isso. não por ela estar descansando - isso é bom, mas porque o mundo é um lugar terrível, cheio de sofrimento e dor. este planeta não merece pessoas boas como você vivendo nele, Strawberry. nós fomos feitos para um outro mundo - um lugar melhor, um abrigo desta desolação! descanse em paz!

eu também me juntarei a você, então por favor guarde um lugar pra mim nesse ônibus!

 

[Joeydoe]

Because he witnessed it and put the video together himself

He who?

 

[Euthanza]

yea except it lasted 40 minutes long including what she spent chocking and holding back vomit

90% of natural dying last more than 2 days, only 10% natural death occurs between 2 hours - 2 days.

Under 2 hours is ultra fast. I see the definition of peaceful within SN method.

I don't see any mention of choking, she wasn't holding back, in fact she took 2 glass.
Peace be upon them both

 

[caushin11]

s so young... I can imagine how much pain she was in, for her to do it while being so young and beautiful... while being, in theory, at her peak peformance (21 years old)...
was she depressed? what were her motives? does someone know?
I know this probably ain't gonna be answered, as even the OP is not with us anymore...

she is so brave i hope she found the peace she deserved.

90% of natural dying last more than 2 days, only 10% natural death occurs between 2 hours - 2 days.

Under 2 hours is ultra fast. I see the definition of peaceful within SN method.

I don't see any mention of choking, she wasn't holding back, in fact she took 2 glass.
Peace be upon them both

does the girl make noises while in the process of taking SN? dont want to be caught if i ctb.

 

[caushin11]

can you send me pls the full video. if it's ok. thanks

i do but it really doesn't show much more than in this one. besides, there's no audio, so we don't even know what they were talking about (to those who understand portuguese).

 

[LookAway]

can you send me pls the full video. if it's ok. thanks

Private message me, I have it, if you're interested. Anyone who tries to come in here saying that we should respect them, Strawberry Panic wanted the video to be released. She even signed an entire paper stating that it was okay to release it.

she is so brave i hope she found the peace she deserved.

does the girl make noises while in the process of taking SN? dont want to be caught if i ctb.

There was no sound. user398417 removed the sound. It's a 40 minute video of her drinking SN and hanging out with him on video chat until she falls asleep.
She didn't vomit. She didn't suffer.
Her SN was only 95%

 

[EndlessNight]

I met this girl in a whats app group and I was there when she said goodbye to everyone. I regret not having talked to her more. To this day I still think about her.

 

[LookAway]

thank you for the documentation! that was very helpful!

I hope she is resting in peace.

the fact that she didn't take anti-emetic, used a lot of water and used a brand that is only 95% pure (instead of 99%), show how effective SN is.

SN is very, very effective.

the fact that she took a second dose even without vomiting shows how decided she was.

but she was so young... I can imagine how much pain she was in, for her to do it while being so young and beautiful... while being, in theory, at her peak peformance (21 years old)...
was she depressed? what were her motives? does someone know?
I know this probably ain't gonna be answered, as even the OP is not with us anymore...

btw, I saw @user398417 CTB video you guys posted and, wow, it was violent. I wouldn't ever use that violent method. I'm surprised he decided to use it despite knowing that there are peaceful options available - like SN. I really wonder why he chose that instead of SN. does anyone know? I may be wrong, but I think if anyone had SN and a rope, almost everyone would choose SN.
seeing that video almost makes me want to delay my CTB as much as possible, even though I've been decided and planning it for years. that was an ugly scene.
sorry but the link should be between spoilers with a trigger warning, by the way. a mod should probably edit that link to add spoilers.

and yes, SN is peaceful. at least way more peaceful than many methods like hanging, jumping etc). I'm also surprised people are complaining about having to wait 20-40 minutes. you just wait and do nothing. you lie down in bed and relax. that's not so different from what we do everyday anyway...

every method is gonna have its downsides. even N tastes very bad, is super expensive and super hard to find. if you don't want to be alone with your thoughts for 20 minutes before you pass out, I can understand it, but in the past people had to go through much more horrible things in order to CTB. SN is a walk in the park compared to what people used to do and still do (because of lack of information or availability of peaceful methods) all over the world.

Spoiler: Português

obrigado por documentar e relatar o caso!

espeero q ela esteja descansando em paz.

o fato de ela não ter usado anti-emético, usado muita água (em vez de pouca) e usado uma marca q tem 95% de pureza (em vez de 99%), mostra o quão efetivo o SN é.

SN é muito, muito eficiente.

o fato de ela ter tomado uma segunda dose, mostra o quanto ela estava decidida.

mas ela era tão jovem... consigo imaginar o quanto de dor ela estava sentindo, pra ela fazer isso tão jovem e bonita, numa fase da vida q teoricamente é o auge (21 anos de idade)...

ela estava deprimida? quais eram os motivos dela? alguém sabe? isso provavelmente não será respondido, visto q o criador do tópico não está mais conosco...

por sinal, eu vi o vídeo do CTB do user398417 e, caraca, foi violento. eu jamais usaria um método violento desses. fico surpreso q ela tenha decidido por esse método mesmo sabendo q existem opções mais pacíficas, como SN. por que será que ele não escolheu SN? posso estar errado, mas acho que se alguém tivesse opção entre SN e corda, quase todos iriam escolher SN...

ver esse vídeo quase me faz querer atrasar meu CTB o máximo possível, mesmo eu tendo decidido e planejado por anos. aquela foi uma cena feia.

e sim, respondendo a alguns da thread, SN é pacífico. pelo menos bem mais pacífico q outros métodos, como enforcamento, pular de prédios, ser atropelado por trens etc...
também fico surpreso por ver pessoas reclamando de ter q esperar 20-40 minutos. eu só esperaria e não faria nada. deitaria e relaxaria. simples. não é tão diferente do q eu já faço todos os dias...

todo método terá seus lados ruins. até N tem gosto ruim, é super caro e super difícil de encontrar. se vc não quer ficar sozinho com seus próprios pensamentos por 20 minutos, eu entendo, mas eu também sei q no passado as pessoas aguentavam coisas muito piores pra conseguir CTB. ainda aguentam hoje, na falta de informações ou de disponibilidade de métodos pacíficos. perto de outros métodos mais violentos e arriscados (métodos com risco de haver sequela permanente por exemplo), SN é moleza. pelo menos na minha opinião.

Brother he literally for months before he did it was telling everybody he was going to do it he even posted videos of where he was going to do it saying that he was going to do it all over social media.

 

[caushin11]

Private message me, I have it, if you're interested. Anyone who tries to come in here saying that we should respect them, Strawberry Panic wanted the video to be released. She even signed an entire paper stating that it was okay to release it.

There was no sound. user398417 removed the sound. It's a 40 minute video of her drinking SN and hanging out with him on video chat until she falls asleep.
She didn't vomit. She didn't suffer.
Her SN was only 95%

Ah ok i understand . Thanks..

Private message me, I have it, if you're interested. Anyone who tries to come in here saying that we should respect them, Strawberry Panic wanted the video to be released. She even signed an entire paper stating that it was okay to release it.

Can you pls send the full video. Thanks

 

[Touhou]

Ah ok i understand . Thanks..

Can you pls send the full video. Thanks

If he did send it to you, could you send it to me too, please?

 

[animetal]

If he did send it to you, could you send it to me too, please?

Same if you got sent the video I would like to see it too. I'm leaning towards this method and want to catch a glimpse of what to expect

 

[death2022]

Same if you got sent the video I would like to see it too. I'm leaning towards this method and want to catch a glimpse of what to expect

same if you have the video can you send it to me, many thanks.