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Beavisandbutthead

Beavisandbutthead

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Jun 12, 2024
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What is your main reason to ctb?
 
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ma0

How did I get here?
Dec 20, 2024
667
General disconnect form reality, an inability to form genuine connections and feel emotions about anything, and a brick wall in my head making it impossible to accomplish anything noteworthy.
 
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CentreMid

CentreMid

Midfielder
Aug 23, 2018
539
Depends on how you want to frame it.

One of my long-time reasons to ctb is the trauma caused by my "family", along with the fact that I've lived with undiagnosed neurodivergency and mental illness for a good portion of my life (mental illness caused by said "family"). Nothing will be able to undo what they did to me, and it'd be better for everyone in my life if I just disappeared and was forgotten about. No need to burden anyone, not even as a thought.

As for an immediate reason, it's about the federal election in my country rn. Seeing what's happening to my neighbours down south scares me a lot (hello from the land of maple syrup!), and being a mix of the many things conservatives hate (non-white, openly bisexual, ADHD, lady) puts a huge target on my back.

Not gonna dive too deep into the latter, but let's just say that I have a contingency plan in place if things get really, really bad. Even if nothing drastic immediately happens, politics are a slippery slope (as demonstrated by the neighbours down south), and I'd like to go on my own terms.
 
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ThatGuyOverThere

ThatGuyOverThere

David Benatar Enjoyer
Apr 25, 2024
189
I have spent years thinking over this exact question, what exactly are my main motivations to CTB?

My plan is not an irritational, emotional cry for help, but rather is well put together and well thought out. I have decided to CTB, not because I'm depressed, but rather I have more of philosophical justification.

I personally believe that human consciousness is suffering, and is a net negative for every human including myself. I believe this because our conciseness is what facilitates every and all negatives in life, whether that be our ability to feel physical pain or mental pain, the only vehicle we use to experience it is our minds cursed ability to comprehend our surroundings. so the solution is simple, just get rid of our ability to feel. which is literally imposable if you wish to keep living. So it come down to a simple calculation, do you value the ability to not feel pain over the ability to live and feel pleasure.

Which I personally think that the suffering of life way out ways the pleasure of it, and thus I value the minimization of the suffering of life, leading me to the rational conclusion that I would be better of if I just CTB.
 
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imOK

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Apr 10, 2025
267
I'm just tired man, show's over.

Hanging around endlessly now would just be in bad taste.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Because I don't wish for existence at all and I see it as deeply undesirable to exist in every way, to me existence really does feel like the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes so much suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish for an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten and nothing can concern me, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive and I see it as the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than be conscious enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents just to die tortured by old age and cease existing anyway, I just find it horrific how a human can exist for so long, I wish to cease existing as I want some peace and for me peace could only lie in being unconscious for all eternity as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer. I'd rather prevent suffering than prolong it in this existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway, more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer, I never should had been burdened with this existence at all and I'll always find it a burden to exist, it's one that just causes problems there were never a need for and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
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Treatment resistant depression/ptsd
 
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dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
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Major depressive disorder
 
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