Ready to go

[tiredandconfused]

I am really ready to go now. It's been a long time of trying but I can't take much more. I couldn't find a source of SN but have painkillers. Just need to figure out the amount I need. I don't want to die here, I live in a domestic violence refuge and I know it wouldn't be fair to put anyone through finding me. I figure that if I take enough meds and take myself to a hospital. I can die there. Any advice is appreciated to make sure I can do this in the least painful way.

 

[LastFlowers]

I certainly don't want to keep you from an end to your suffering, but I am not sure what you mean by taking enough meds and then taking yourself to the hospital?
I'm guessing you would either get into an accident before you arrived or they would try to keep you alive or resuscitate you.
They definitely are not going to stand there and simply watch over you while you pass away.

I'm ready too, but am trying to stay as calm as I can under extreme duress while I finish preparing for my death and finishing up what I need to, I know how upsetting it can be to linger here when you've already had enough.
But I am concerned that the combination of unnamed painkillers and taking yourself to the hospital may land you in an even worse position and not the one you intended.

 

[tiredandconfused]

I know that with painkillers if you take enough there's nothing they can do. Your organs shut down after a day. I know it's not a nice way to go but when I tried to slit my wrists I just couldn't press hard enough. I worry if I die here it would be traumatic for the staff and other residents. I thought of just taking myself off to some woods but then I worry about the person that finds my body.

 

[lukas19]

Please don't try and OD on painkillers at best you will die 2-3 as your organs fail at best you'll on drips and dialysis for the rest of your life.
DM if you want SN address

 

[shootemallagain]

I am really ready to go now. It's been a long time of trying but I can't take much more. I couldn't find a source of SN but have painkillers. Just need to figure out the amount I need. I don't want to die here, I live in a domestic violence refuge and I know it wouldn't be fair to put anyone through finding me. I figure that if I take enough meds and take myself to a hospital. I can die there. Any advice is appreciated to make sure I can do this in the least painful way.

you are ready but you are stil here?