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NotOkay_

NotOkay_

The damage is done, so i guess I’ll be leaving
Dec 2, 2020
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I've been planning to ctb for over a month now due to excruciating physical and mental symptoms. I tried the edit bag with sedatives in October and i was 100% sure of my decision, no SI WHATSOVER But the method failed and i ended up in the hospital. I've now resorted to Partial hanging after much practice i think I've found how to comfortably do this. I tried to ctb last night but i felt all numb and low key felt myself slipping away but I chickened out and went to sleep. I NEED TO CTB I'm looong overdue, i wish I would've done this much sooner but I didn't have the kind of support I do here ❤️ Reddit is shit :(
 

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I'm sorry that life has brought you to this point and I hope that you manage to find peace :heart:
 
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It's a shame you're leaving but it's your decision and we respect it.
Hope you find peace, you really deserve it.

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I hope this decision brings you peace, good luck <3
 
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Life: you can’t fire me, I quit.
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I'm sorry it's come to this but I know that you have made the right decision for you. We are here and I hope if you choose it's not your time to CTB that you will come back. Wishing you a peaceful journey
 
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Hope you find peace if you succeed. If you won't feel like it today remember is always ok to change your mind. A big hug, you just joined and leaving already :aw:
 
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Sherri said:
Hope you find peace if you succeed. If you won't feel like it today remember is always ok to change your mind. A big hug, you just joined and leaving already :aw:
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I didn't know about this site, if i did I'd have joined sooner :(
 
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Golden_xx said:
I've been planning to ctb for over a month now due to excruciating physical and mental symptoms. I tried the edit bag with sedatives in October and i was 100% sure of my decision, no SI WHATSOVER But the method failed and i ended up in the hospital. I've now resorted to Partial hanging after much practice i think I've found how to comfortably do this. I tried to ctb last night but i felt all numb and low key felt myself slipping away but I chickened out and went to sleep. I NEED TO CTB I'm looong overdue, i wish I would've done this much sooner but I didn't have the kind of support I do here ❤ Reddit is shit :(
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Reddit IS shit! Hope you're feeling comfortable whatever you're doing. No need to rush.
 
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Already leaving? I hope you find peace! :heart: Hugs :hug::hug::heart:
 
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I'm sorry life has brought you to this point, and that we didn't get a chance to know you better. I hope you find the peace and relief you desire.
 
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The damage is done, so i guess I’ll be leaving
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Bonkers said:
Reddit IS shit! Hope you're feeling comfortable whatever you're doing. No need to rush.
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Everyone on there's just like "things will get better, be positive " when that's not true
 
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Golden_xx said:
Everyone on there's just like "things will get better, be positive " when that's not true
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Toxic positivity rarely helps people as lost as some of us are. Some just never realize that.

In any case. I'm sad to see the desperation you feel that you need to go so soon. I respect your decision, and hope you find the peace you seek.
 
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I'm sorry for your mental and physical pain. I hope you are able to find peace and comfort :hug::hug::hug:
 
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Golden_xx said:
I tried the edit bag with sedatives in October ... But the method failed and i ended up in the hospital.
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Do you happen to know why the exit bag failed for you? Were you using inert gas?

Wishing you great wellness, @Golden_xx...
 
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Golden_xx said:
Everyone on there's just like "things will get better, be positive " when that's not true
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I've found this is the only place I can be completely honest, and that in itself is a relief / comfort. To be understood and not judged. Freedom to say what's true without fear of huge unhelpful and damaging over reactions. Say 'out loud' what's been running through my head for most of my life.

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Everyone on there's just like "things will get better, be positive " when that's not true
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