Venting Ready to ctb tonight

[lokabe82]

I've been thinking about ctb just about constantly lately. My mind, body, and soul are just so exhausted and there is no way to rest. I can't even form the thoughts to truly convey how I'm feeling right now. All of my positive traits are disappearing because im being consumed by despair. It's growing and snuffing the person I used to be. I've always simply coexisted with despair until it consumed me.

I walk around like a zombie, barely making any sense when I speak, I'm always nauseous, I'm dizzy, and I'm exhausted.

I have a very strong urge to hang in my closet. It's all I can think about right now. I don't have any way to be alone though. I don't want to fight this urge.

This isn't my preferred way to go but I'm so tired.

 

[AllFoxedOut]

I've always simply coexisted with despair until it consumed me.

beautiful way of putting it. I'm sorry you've been pushed so far down with it. if you want to reach out my DMs are open, but if not I wish you nothing but the best.

 

[dogemn]

I have a very strong urge to hang in my closet.

Before you do anything, please keep in mind that this is an extremely horrible way to go!

 

[lokabe82]

beautiful way of putting it. I'm sorry you've been pushed so far down with it. if you want to reach out my DMs are open, but if not I wish you nothing but the best.

That would be nice, I appreciate it

 

[istheretrulyalife?]

Good luck with everything. I hope you find peace in whatever comes after

 

[lokabe82]

My time will come but it won't be tonight

 

[RobZed]

Hey Im here to chat if you need someone. Ive been there bro. Hit me up!

 

[lokabe82]

Hey Im here to chat if you need someone. Ive been there bro. Hit me up!

Thank you, I would appreciate that!

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing here certainly is so tiring and torturous, it's really understandable just wishing for everything to finally be forgotten about, I hope that when the time is right for you to leave you find the freedom you search for.