bpdrecovery
recovering
- May 5, 2023
- 8
i love talking about my self harm experiences but the only person i can talk about it to is not allways on reach.
so.....
take some stories. i just ask that you please dont read this stuff if that kind of subject affects you negativelly. feel free to share your own stories
here are a few
1- there was a time, around 2018 i think, when i used to cut my chest. i'd put toilet paper on my bra so that it could absorb the blood while i just live my life.
this time, i did my cutting as allways (at school), put the paper, bra and white uniform. as i was leaving the bathroom, i felt my chest extremely wet. panicked and invaded de teachers stall, that had their own sink. by pure luck my uniform was clean, but my whole bra was stained red and i had to wash it on the sink and just went the rest of the day with a soaked bra.
2- there was a time i had an anger outburst, and i was holding a knive. those you cut your food with, and i instinctivly slammed it on my arm. it wasnt even deep, but it started bleeding A LOTS. (i have a video of it still) i think i hit a vein or something. had to stop the bleeding myself
3- i once did an one-swipe on my thigh that went pretty far. it was my deepest cut, it went to fat in _one swipe_. i forced the bleeding to stop, putting force over it, when my leg started tingling. i didnt ask anyone for help, but luckily on the next day i had a blood exam, so when they got the results they said i had a worryingly small ammount of blood or something like that, so 3 days after the wound i had medical serum injected on my veins to make up for it.
4- i am really creative when it comes to SH with random items. i've burned myself, scratched myself, sandpapered myself, cut, drank and ate unedible things (as cleaning alcohol, cleaning products and stuff, graphite, random plants on the street, etc), bruised myself, bit.... the list goes on.
5- had medical shock once because of a 3rd degree burn, and instead of going to the hospital AS I SHOULD, i asked a virtual friend for help and we worked it out.
i think my next post will be a first aid post with info on what to do on emergencies, when you get wounds and stuff.
hope yall okay! <3
so.....
take some stories. i just ask that you please dont read this stuff if that kind of subject affects you negativelly. feel free to share your own stories
here are a few
1- there was a time, around 2018 i think, when i used to cut my chest. i'd put toilet paper on my bra so that it could absorb the blood while i just live my life.
this time, i did my cutting as allways (at school), put the paper, bra and white uniform. as i was leaving the bathroom, i felt my chest extremely wet. panicked and invaded de teachers stall, that had their own sink. by pure luck my uniform was clean, but my whole bra was stained red and i had to wash it on the sink and just went the rest of the day with a soaked bra.
2- there was a time i had an anger outburst, and i was holding a knive. those you cut your food with, and i instinctivly slammed it on my arm. it wasnt even deep, but it started bleeding A LOTS. (i have a video of it still) i think i hit a vein or something. had to stop the bleeding myself
3- i once did an one-swipe on my thigh that went pretty far. it was my deepest cut, it went to fat in _one swipe_. i forced the bleeding to stop, putting force over it, when my leg started tingling. i didnt ask anyone for help, but luckily on the next day i had a blood exam, so when they got the results they said i had a worryingly small ammount of blood or something like that, so 3 days after the wound i had medical serum injected on my veins to make up for it.
4- i am really creative when it comes to SH with random items. i've burned myself, scratched myself, sandpapered myself, cut, drank and ate unedible things (as cleaning alcohol, cleaning products and stuff, graphite, random plants on the street, etc), bruised myself, bit.... the list goes on.
5- had medical shock once because of a 3rd degree burn, and instead of going to the hospital AS I SHOULD, i asked a virtual friend for help and we worked it out.
i think my next post will be a first aid post with info on what to do on emergencies, when you get wounds and stuff.
hope yall okay! <3
