I was a mistake. If I was not born, it would have saved a lot of agony, pain for some people I know, and also a lot of resources. May be nature wanted to give me a chance to survive, I have taken a lot of things.. I owe a lot. I owe everything .. to people.. I have never given back to people.. am just like a parasite sapping everything. How come I never gave anything to anyone.. I just want to return everything that I had taken.. I am unable to stand this anymore, I can't take any more help, love .. its too much for me to take.. I'm feeling like a knife is put to my heart and am asking myself 'are you a human? You know you can't give it back, can't return all the favour.. then why are you taking it in? Don't you know how much you owe?' .. it was a hellish ride honestly.. I was a mistake. I am one step short of being called an 'insane person'...This feeble body and mind was unable to stand in this game and I lost, fell down to ground.. I was destroyed. I saw some of the texts I read come true in front of my eyes.. can this be called a great journey and can I be put to rest? Please measure the pain I've experienced from my view..If it has to be measured.
Sorry.. this is just a rant.