Random thoughts

[brighter]

We have some sort of a depression awareness class today, i think I'm gonna start straight up crying because I feel utterly terrible today.

Message me sweetie

 

[AhG]

I don't think I've ever needed you more than I do right now, but I can't reach out to you, because we don't speak now. I'm sorry I did this to us.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

We have some sort of a depression awareness class today, i think I'm gonna start straight up crying because I feel utterly terrible today.

wtf?

 

[salvation]

I smashed my left hand's middle finger while closing a window, it is bleeding heavily, hurts horribly

 

[Kikoo Loool]

I smashed my left hand's middle finger while closing a window, it is bleeding heavily, hurts horribly

I commiserate.

 

[Roberto]

We have some sort of a depression awareness class today, i think I'm gonna start straight up crying because I feel utterly terrible today.

 

[salvation]

I can never eat, i only have 1 thing daily

 

[anuglymale]

Trying to take pictures where I will not be ugly, nah, failed to do it, just reminded myself once against that I should better die

 

[Misanthrope]

Woke up vomiting in my bed again. It is all so grinding and I am so tired and the powers that be want to further cut my support hours. So that is yet another fight I don't have the energy for. Sat here fantasising about gathering all my puke and throwing it in my MP's face. But I would likely get done under terrorism laws for employing a biological agent... These people take the piss and the bitterness in me wishes I could just inflict this misery on them and have them suffer it. Destroy all their fucking illusions.

 

[AhG]

It's my Birthday today, and I had hoped for a "birthday" text from you, but I knew it wouldn't happen. But deep down, I had hoped for it at midnight. Midnight came and here I am, still staring at my phone, waiting. When I go to sleep, I'll wake up and still wait, I'll always wait for you.

 

[sadsoul]

It's my Birthday today, and I had hoped for a "birthday" text from you, but I knew it wouldn't happen. But deep down, I had hoped for it at midnight. Midnight came and here I am, still staring at my phone, waiting. When I go to sleep, I'll wake up and still wait, I'll always wait for you.

:( I'm not the you you're talking about but happy birthday, if it means anything. ❤

 

[Roberto]

It's my Birthday today, and I had hoped for a "birthday" text from you, but I knew it wouldn't happen. But deep down, I had hoped for it at midnight. Midnight came and here I am, still staring at my phone, waiting. When I go to sleep, I'll wake up and still wait, I'll always wait for you.

 

[throwaway123]

It's my Birthday today, and I had hoped for a "birthday" text from you, but I knew it wouldn't happen. But deep down, I had hoped for it at midnight. Midnight came and here I am, still staring at my phone, waiting. When I go to sleep, I'll wake up and still wait, I'll always wait for you.

I know it's harsh to say what I'm about to say but you need to let go. If you truly love someone you will let go of him/her. That not only sets you free but also the other person. You might not even realize the effect you're having on the other person. Sometimes the action we take in the best interest of our loved ones end up hurting the ones we love the most. Clinging on to false hope is the worst thing you can do.

Believe me everyone here experienced it at some point in their lives.

 

[Cookiedough8956]

I love how everytime when I think, "Maybe it's not so bad, I might not ctb" life always do something to remind me why I'm doing it. Long story short, my family sucks etc. When I do CTB I hope they all regret not defending or being there for me.

Don't think my family will regret
If any thing they will put the blame on me somehow.
Bc they are the good ones and im the bad screwed up one apparently.

 

[Soon4me]

Never put the key to your happiness in someone elses pocket.

 

[throwaway777]

i dont want my friend to suffer when i kms ... i tried to go away ... but i couldnt bc i m scared to be alone .. i dont want to die alone .. im so selfish ... im so scared ..i hate ms so much it hurts it makes me want to kms even more

 

[AnnihilatedAnna]

It's my Birthday today, and I had hoped for a "birthday" text from you, but I knew it wouldn't happen. But deep down, I had hoped for it at midnight. Midnight came and here I am, still staring at my phone, waiting. When I go to sleep, I'll wake up and still wait, I'll always wait for you.

It might not mean anything, but Happy Birthday

 

[sadsoul]

Every day is constant pain, I want all of this to stop :(

 

[Kassender]

I cant believe what a pathetic loser ive become.

Im 30 and all i have is my job.
I dont want to go back. I havent made a single friend in this new town.

Im the invisible weird guy. The creepy loser everyone i know irl loves to hate.

I think i have a huge 'kick me' sign above my head as most people, including friends and family, line up to shit on my face

Im slowly being consumed by hatred. Over the fact that im just a lesser weakling other animals will prey upon.

Thats ALL i am and i hate this.
But i hate myself even more for not being able to change.
For not being able to just kill myself when all that awaits is more loneliness, more humiliation, more of the same for 30 more years.

Just fucking do it you wimp, no one will miss you

 

[AhG]

It might not mean anything, but Happy Birthday

Actually, it does mean a lot. Thank you very much!

 

[anuglymale]

I bite my cheek inside too much

And lips

 

[VikingWinger]

I about my final, glorious meal before I ctb when I shop groceries

 

[Life sucks]

Science and knowledge are not Pro-life. Its either pro-choice or pro-death depending on the axiom you want or believe in. Pro-life= people want to remain ignorant.

 

[15dec]

Being moaned at and mocked by my mum because it hurts changing my piercing is not how I wanted my morning to start.

 

[thatguyakira123]

Brother was shouting and undermining my mom again. I just wanted to hurt him so bad but I got scared and chicken out. I had a knife in my hand and ready to open my door to hurt him, but I got scared like a little bitch. I wish he would just go away. It's so unfair, why is it I have to be the one that dies.

Don't think my family will regret
If any thing they will put the blame on me somehow.
Bc they are the good ones and im the bad screwed up one apparently.

I know my older brother is gonna use it to emotionally blackmail my mother and drag me through the dirt when talking to my family, they already believe all the lies he says about me anyways. Then he'll use my death to emotionally blackmail sympathy for him from my family.

 

[Severnayasemiramida]

He always calls and wishes me goodnight when he goes to sleep. Today I haven't even received a single message telling he's going to sleep. I started messaging every 30 minutes, was doubting if he was drinking with friends or something terrible had happened.

Finally I called. He became angry cause "it's 3 a.m. and I was sleeping". Shit, for me it's 7 a.m. and I can't fall asleep even now.

Why the fuck I didn't jumped a month ago and got stuck in questionable distant relationship?

 

[waived]

I used to have the Calvin and Hobbes collections and am sitting here looking at online versions while listening to summer night insects audio and it's a bit much.

 

[sadsoul]

Can't decide whether society is the problem or just me

 

[Jodes]

@sadsoul people like me shouldn't be here if that helps

 

[Donewith_]

Can't fake it anymore..
Let this end.
want to be left alone.
My birth was a disaster..
There in no benefit from it.