Putting everything on hold in anticipation of CTB

[dopaminedeath]

I have about a month before my date (SN method). But since this year started I have just been stuck not doing anything. it seems futile and I have been isolating from the little contact I did have with people. I'm already pretty avoidant though I'm making no effort for anything cause I'm waiting for the date. I guess it wouldn't be an issue as long as I succeed. Just getting nervous of SI/failing.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's understandable avoiding everything if you know that you are soon to be gone. I think that knowing death will come soon certainly makes existing seem especially pointless and insignificant.

 

[JB3567]

Same here, going to CTB within a month through SN. I see some threads on here talking about being extremely terrified to go through with their CTB. I kinda understand it but im so much more terrified of failing and having to go through with a more complicated method like hanging or hydrogen sulfide

 

[Sovereign]

I'm sorry to hear about your situation. Getting stuck in your cycle of futility is mind-bending to say the least. I've been there. I completely understand your choices and your concerns. I wish you the best of luck in with your future, being in life or in death.

 

[jodes2]

I hope you change your mind

 

[BlackWednesday]

Why did you set that particular date and why are you so set on it if you have what you need?