PTSD

[goodoldnoname923]

I have such an easy method to CTB a method I tried many years ago at a younger age,the problem is whenever i try it i start to panic immediately going back to that young teenager who desperately tried to fight their way out…a regretful decision ik considering the damage I've caused and etc

But I'm trying to do it now but I just cant i find myself panicking immediately when I didn't all those years ago

 

[tbroken]

It happens to me also, i don't know your age, but when i was screw*ng away my life at young age, it looked all so simple and without consequences... now, i feel sometimes all the heaviness of all the bad things that happened to me.
Also recovery is very difficult, because i think at many things at the same time and i always feel in danger, even when danger is far away.

I had the chance to recover the relationship with my father when i was 14 or 15 and let him help me with my life and an injury and i did the exact opposite and burnt all my fu**ing life away. DAMMIT.