Venting PTSD is becoming unbearable

[mold]

Due to recent traumatic events my PTSD has gotten to a point where it gets worse every day.

It's to the point where I have so many random triggers that shouldn't even be triggers. It makes me feel like those kids who faked mental disorders on Discord during covid (lol). I know my struggles and pain and mental illnesses are real, but I hate seeing myself be this weak over little things. Over trivial, meaningless words or objects or phrases.

It makes me hate myself even more than I already do. I already had so much PTSD from the past I only *barely* recovered from, and now its all shit. It's all so much worse. I just want it all to be over.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

That sounds horrific, I'm so sorry you have to go through that. I've gone through similar things. I was at a state at some point where it was difficult for me to even be around my father without shaking and crying. It made me feel pathetic and stupid even though I physically couldn't control it. Don't hate yourself over things that are out of your control. It's not your fault you have ptsd and had to go through terrible things. I hope you heal. God bless.

 

[gunmetalblue]

As someone with PTSD too, I'm very sorry. It's awful, I hope you have or can obtain some help to ease the symptoms. Wishing you all the strength necessary