Probably this weekend

[anyoneshorizon]

I'm coming to the conclusion that it's not gonna get any better. I keep thinking that I will wake up and feel totally different or be like a new person but it's not gonna happen. Pretending to be a happy and confident doesn't work because once I see myself I feel horrible and it'll always be like that. I think maybe this time will be different and it ain't. I've expressed the frustration I have had living like this on other post no one in my life understands. I know I will never ever ever ever be able to fully or even really kinda enjoy life in general or like other people. I feel it's pointless to keep going I worry sometimes what people will think of me but i guess it doesn't even matter.

The only reason I haven't killed myself yet was because I still had hope things would change and I was too scared or the reality of what commuting suicide means. I guess also I feel selfish for wanting to kill myself.
Is it selfish for me to kill myself because of all my parents work and sacrifice so I could have a good life. Or are they selfish to force me to stay alive and continue living a life I hate and one that gives my so much pain and anguish. I think a little a both but mostly I am the more selfish one






this is the bottle I got it wouldn't hurt to post on here to make sure there's not anything that I'm missing. Some of those text kinda worry

 

[anyoneshorizon]

That's one of the no longer available ones.

What do you mean

 

[lifeORdeath]

The stuff shown on the photo is one of the sources that stopped selling to non-bisinesses. Probably should have turned the bottle a little more, but guess it doesn't matter now anyway since folks cant buy it.
I see the photo is gone, so that's good.

 

[anyoneshorizon]

The stuff shown on the photo is one of the sources that stopped selling to non-bisinesses. Probably should have turned the bottle a little more, but guess it doesn't matter now anyway since folks cant buy it.
I see the photo is gone, so that's good.

But is still works ?

But is still works ?

Can you dm me?

 

[farakini]

Is it selfish for me to kill myself

Of course it's selfish to kill yourself, but not the kind of selfish that makes you a bad person. It would be selfish of your loved ones to want you stay just because they'll miss you. I'd understand if they're actively trying to get you help, and showing you ways to improve your life, but to not ctb because other ppl will hurt, will only add to your suffering. We're individuals and we each have our own measure of what we can bear.…..I support whatever decision you make and just know that you can take as long as you like. This is a safe place for you if you need comfort……….May you find eternal peace and freedom from your pain. You are not alone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Anything that benefits yourself at the expense of others can be seen as 'selfish', but that in no way means that suicide could ever be wrong. Nobody should be guilt tripped into staying here and feel as though they are forced to endure this life that they never asked for, when to leave this world is a personal decision which should be respected and others shouldn't be able to interfere with this as they are not living your life. I understand that it can be tiring having to continue to endure a life that you hate,
I wish you freedom from all suffering for when the time is right for you to leave.