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itsallogrenow

itsallogrenow

Fck the Government, Fck the Police!
Jun 13, 2024
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You're all probably sick of my posts now but I feel like I want to keep people updated.

Police have come again saying that I've ordered another set of SN after the one i ordered on the 1st April, which I haven't. It's only the two I've done so far.

This second notfication apparently came from Royal Mail this time so they are involved too. They have the tracking number for the parcel and they know its currently still in Ukraine.

Fucking bullshit.
 
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bipp

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Mar 29, 2026
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im really sorry about that man I hope all goes well for you, wishing you a safe journey if you ever do end up getting the SN
 
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mark_b

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Dec 18, 2024
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Sorry you have to go through all of this mate. It's bad enough having to order something like SN and then you get a visit from police... I wonder if police has nothing better to do. From the outside it looks like your country has more serious problems than a bunch of people purchasing a substance with which they won't harm someone else.
 
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CatLvr

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Aug 1, 2024
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That is SUCH bullshit. I'm really sorry you are going through this.
 
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itsallogrenow

Fck the Government, Fck the Police!
Jun 13, 2024
143
What did they say when they arrived? sounds like such a hassle i'm so sorry ❤️‍🩹

They said that they had another notification that I'd ordered SN again.

Explained that the police already came again for this and they were already aware. That i hadnt ordered SN since then so i was confused. They were apparently going to get in touch with mental health services last week but ofc they didn't do that...

Thats when they spoke to each other and mentioned the notification had come from Royal Mail.

Gave the whole spiel a out wanting to help and I told them I'm tired of hearing that from people 😡

They tried to ask me questions but I refused to answer. They wanted to know where I'm ordering it from.

Then when they weren't getting anywhere with me, they spoke to my mum (I went upstairs) and they left.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,870
That is just so terrible, it truly is the most horrific world where those people want to do all they can to force others to suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence, anti-suicide is just terrible extreme cruelty, there's so much cruelty in how humans have made it a crime to die peacefully with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what.
 
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thelostautistic

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Jul 31, 2025
355
I don't understand why they are asking where we order from. They obviously know that already or they wouldn't be at our doors🤦‍♀️
 
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itsallogrenow

Fck the Government, Fck the Police!
Jun 13, 2024
143
I don't understand why they are asking where we order from. They obviously know that already or they wouldn't be at our doors🤦‍♀️

Yeah it's ridiculous.

One of the police officers asked me if to show him the order stuff on my.phone. Like fuck off, you've got the information already, what more do you want? 🤣
 
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Fresh Soju

~🍻자살처럼🍶~
Oct 11, 2020
453
Gave the whole spiel a out wanting to help and I told them I'm tired of hearing that from people 😡
The "help" is always so lackluster. even more so when you have complex issues which will take a lot of time and money to fix, or are just totally out of reach no matter what.

Maybe they'd have a point about helping if anyone caught buying SN to end themselves got like $1M worth of help a year, but all you get is starved mental or physical healthcare systems trying to slap a bandaid on whatever you're going through so you can bleed out slower.
 
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Dayrain

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Feb 3, 2023
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I don't understand why they are asking where we order from. They obviously know that already or they wouldn't be at our doors🤦‍♀️
One of the police officers asked me if to show him the order stuff on my.phone. Like fuck off, you've got the information already, what more do you want? 🤣
I think not every officer knows everything. I think those that do these welfare checks are not in high positions, rather very low ranks? They probably don't get told everything by superiors. So they maybe do things for their own interest or to appear before superiors with commitment to maybe get to a higher rank.
 
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itsallogrenow

Fck the Government, Fck the Police!
Jun 13, 2024
143
The "help" is always so lackluster. even more so when you have complex issues which will take a lot of time and money to fix, or are just totally out of reach no matter what.

Maybe they'd have a point about helping if anyone caught buying SN to end themselves got like $1M worth of help a year, but all you get is starved mental or physical healthcare systems trying to slap a bandaid on whatever you're going through so you can bleed out slower.
The first time they came, they asked if I had heard of the Crisis team and that they could support me as all problems are solvable and I have a long life ahead of me...

I told them I was literally with them 2 months ago and they were useless and I've been wanting to die for 20 years. They had absolutely nothing to say after that 🤣

I'm riddle with mental health issues, physical issues, deal with racism, homophobia, shit job w/ no prospects, the world is dog shit...

Letting me die is better than forcing me to live against my will.
 
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thelostautistic

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Jul 31, 2025
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I think not every officer knows everything. I think those that do these welfare checks are not in high positions, rather very low ranks? They probably don't get told everything by superiors. So they maybe do things for their own interest or to appear before superiors with commitment to maybe get to a higher rank.
That's probably true but I meant the police force as a whole know where it's coming from. They wouldn't send officers to do welfare checks if they didn't know
 
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TooMuchHasHappened

Member
Apr 6, 2026
6
First of all, sorry to hear about this, very frustrating, this is exactly what i did not want to happen to me.

That said, i thought i'd use this as an opportunity share my experience, but first a bit of context. So, i've been visiting SaSu for almost two weeks now, but have only just yesterday been accepted as a member due to being from the UK (long story). In that time, i figured out what DSL was, found the website, and placed an order, all before i actually became a member on here. I will create a thread about my experience when i'm allowed, but as i'm new i thought i'd share it here for now.

That said, i ordered from DSL last Saturday, but things did not go well at all (to say the absolute least). In fact, he asked me so many unnecessary questions on WhatsApp, and things got so uncomfortable, that i ended up telling him to cancel my order and keep my money (in the nicest possible way of course).

At first, everything went smoothly, i ordered and paid, sent all my details, and he said he'd ship it on Monday, great i thought, that was easy, weeeeell actually, no! I came back to this site after ordering, read through more threads and posts, and became increasingly aware, and concerned, about the welfare checks that seem to be happening to almost everyone in the UK. This got me quite worried, mainly because i live with my parents (which you'll find out why below), so i just sent him a quick message on WhatsApp and asked if there was anything i should be concerned about regarding delivery to UK, and that i live with my parents and would rather not have any issues at my parents house. He then asked how old i was, so i told him 43, and then explained to him why i live with my parents at that age (which i tell everyone who asks btw as it embarrassing, but justifiable imo), hoping that he would get the message of why i really wanted SN and not ask me any more questions, how wrong i was.

He asked me, on Whatsapp, what i really wanted the SN for, so i told him for food preservation, because after all, that's what he lists it as. Because i said that, he said he'd just send me Nitrite Salt instead. Now, obviously, i had to say i wanted it for food preservation because i wasn't going to say on Whatsapp that i wanted it to CTB. So now I was like WTF is happening here, how am i going to get the message across without actually saying what i really wanted it for. So, I ended up sending many messages, trying to get the message across to him why i really wanted the pure SN and not the Nitrite salt, even telling him the reason that i live with my parents at 43 was because of many accidents, injuries, 15 surgeries, chronic pain, CPTSD, etc, etc, from the military, sports/exercise, and an adrenaline junkie lifestyle, which has unfortunately left me physically and mentally not in a good place (to say the least), hoping that he'd get the message of why i really wanted it, but no, he kept sending me more bizarre messages, even saying that he'll send me meat recipes with the salt, seriously lol. Again, i was like WTF is happening here! I said to him, many times, please just send me what i've ordered and paid for, but he would not confirm this instead he kept on insisting he would send me his salt. He should have, without doubt, especially considering he's well aware of what most people are actually buying it from him for (or so i thought), have been able to figure out exactly what i wanted it for, from the many messages i sent him. However, it seemed like he actually wanted me to spell it out (which of course i wasn't going to do on WhatsApp), and when i refused to do so, it felt like he started playing games with me for some reason, as unbelievable as that sounds. To keep asking the questions that he did, and sending the replies that he did, even after it i made it absolutely clear to him why i really wanted it (without actually spelling it out), i do not understand. I even said many times, just to be nice, that i appreciate his concerns and that i know exactly what i've ordered and how to handle it safely etc, and to send me the SN please. Not that i should have had to go to these lengths at all, but he was leaving me no option because he kept saying he was going to send me Nitrite salt instead, which obviously i did not want. I felt like i had been backed up into a corner. I don't know why he did this to me, it felt so surreal that i started to think that he must be doing this on purpose for some reason to get out of sending me the SN, because i can't think of any other explanation.

Things spiralled so far out of control, that when i looked back at all the messages - whilst still engaging with him - i thought that if his WhatsApp has been compromised, i am 100% going to get a welfare check. Because of that, I told him, in the nicest possible way, to keep my money, cancel my order, and delete all my personal info. To which he replied, that he would do as i wish, and that if i didn't want the Nitrite salt (which is 0.6% SN btw) that he'd donate SOME of my money (but probably just keep most of it) to the Ukrainian army for the war effort. Unbelievable!! I could not believe, that after all that had been said, he was still going on about his Nitrite salt, despite me making it absolutely clear, at least 5 times, that i did not want the salt and that it was only the pure SN that i wanted. Honestly, i thought that either this guy is an effing idiot, he's doing this on purpose for some reason, he's on crack or meth or something similar, or it's not him i'm speaking to, i could come to no other conclusion. I say this because if it was him i was speaking to, and he's aware of and is ok with people buying SN from him to CTB, and he is of sound mind, then why tf did things end up the way they did. But still, me being the nice guy that i am, i told him to donate my money to the army, with the message "Slava UKraini".

Obviously i was very frustrated by all of this, and honestly, if i could copy and paste the whole WhatsApp chat on here (which i couldn't even if i was allowed to, as i've deleted it now) then i know everyone on here would be like, WTF too?

Looking back now, i realise that i should have probably not have asked any further questions after i placed my order, and things probably wouldn't have turned out like they did. However, despite losing my money, i'm kind of glad i cancelled my order, as i'm pretty sure that i would have received a welfare check, which, as i've already said, i absolutely did not want. Personally, if i didn't live with my parents then i wouldn't be too concerned about a welfare check, i'd just make up a story and stash the SN somewhere and tell the police that it was just spare of the moment thing and that i had disposed of it and i was ok, or something like that.

I'm sharing my experience to make my new community aware of what happened to me, so they can hopefully avoid it happening to them. I have nothing to gain by sharing this, in fact i am at a loss, i just thought it was my duty to do so. I feel like i was scammed, and i hate that. Whilst writing this something else occurred to me, so he obviously is legit right? (many on here have attested to that), but he could be playing some people on purpose (if he senses someone is worried) to reduce the amount of shipments he's making (whilst still getting peoples money), and by trying to send people Nitrite Salt to "balance things out" and make himself look (or try to look) less suspicious to authorities, idk, just another thought to explain the unusual and surprising behaviour, but thinking about it now, seems the most plausible explanation of his actions. I'm sure most people, if what happened to me happened to them, would back out of the transaction too, even after already paying (i'm talking about those concerned about welfare checks), so for him it's a win win, he gets to keep the money and the product. Literally money for nothing. Whilst this would obviously be very unethical behaviour, he's obviously not exactly in a very ethical business to begin with (from a normies perspective), LOL, so i wouldn't put it past him. It's not as if we can complain to anyone or ask for a refund or anything, but what we can do however, is to call this behaviour out to the community, because if he's doing similar to other customers and mine is not an isolated case, then the word will get out and people may think twice about dealing with this guy, or at least being prepared to lose their money, or get salt, LOL.

Anyway, everything happens for a reason, i'm past all that now, i'm moving on to CO, because i like charcoal and BBQ's so it seems like a good fit for me, LOL! But then again i like trains, i just don't want to traumatise a driver or those picking up the pieces.

Finally, if this was all just a big misunderstanding, and i completely misread the entire situation, then i apologise to DSL for everything that i have implied and for coming to the conclusions that I have, and I will take it all back if it was all my fault, LOL. But somehow, i feel that i may not be the only one to experience something like this. I will make my own thread thread in due course to make more of our community aware of my experience.
 
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The Dead Line

Member
Apr 7, 2026
16
The don't want to improve the quality of life but they want you to be a salve for multi millionaire people. For someone reason S exposes the reality of the show. For some reason you have no rights to say goodbye to this world. Why? Because they want the machine to keep running. Without farmers no rice would sit on the rich man table. We got it ! We got that there many happy people around the world with $1000000 in their bank account but for me I am not happy. If you don't feel comfortable in a hotel you leave. But here ? It is hard to do.
 
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insectontrial

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Jan 29, 2026
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Hi - I'm also British and UK-based. How are the police finding out that you are attempting to buy this? I've been wanting to do so for some time, but if packages are being intercepted then that will of course cause problems.
 
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voc_89

Experienced
Apr 10, 2023
251
The UK took thought police literally. Sucks at what it has become
 
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jojobanana

Student
Oct 8, 2023
147
Yeah it's ridiculous.

One of the police officers asked me if to show him the order stuff on my.phone. Like fuck off, you've got the information already, what more do you want? 🤣
i'm really proud of you for standing your ground. they're "just helping" attitude is sickening considering the fact that they've probably violated your privacy and rights in every way possible already.
 
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voc_89

Experienced
Apr 10, 2023
251
Hi - I'm also British and UK-based. How are the police finding out that you are attempting to buy this? I've been wanting to do so for some time, but if packages are being intercepted then that will of course cause problems.
my thoughts are they have really sophisticated software to monitor various actions of individuals. So its not just social media and age verification. Its in many arms of internet interaction or builds off things u already flagged for (example, if this person already flagged for being on sites like this, flag all their purchases)
 
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insectontrial

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Jan 29, 2026
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my thoughts are they have really sophisticated software to monitor various actions of individuals. So its not just social media and age verification. Its in many arms of internet interaction or builds off things u already flagged for (example, if this person already flagged for being on sites like this, flag all their purchases)
Ah, not ideal at all. I can't have my parents knowing. I will hold off for now in that case. One of my plans at present involves FSH, but I've been doing a fair bit of research into SN and it seems like a very effective method that I would not be able to back out of once I've initiated the steps.

I just think our government and police force should keep their noses out of it. Given the way this country and society in general treats people like myself, I'd be doing them all a favour.
 
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voc_89

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Apr 10, 2023
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Ah, not ideal at all. I can't have my parents knowing. I will hold off for now in that case. One of my plans at present involves FSH, but I've been doing a fair bit of research into SN and it seems like a very effective method that I would not be able to back out of once I've initiated the steps.

I just think our government and police force should keep their noses out of it. Given the way this country and society in general treats people like myself, I'd be doing them all a favour.
For me I am an old romantic. Jumping at height. I work in a 22 storey building. I'm also a floor/safety warden (funny i know) so i know how to by-pass the safety mechanisms to get to the top. So I am just 1 really bad day away from doing it. Sigh. I agree, the government and police should stay the heck out of our issues and beliefs. But I think these guys can't help it or refuse to understand us. So we will always be perceived as the ones in the wrong as they in the majority (normal thinking people). If i recall, in the past, rather than just creating a peaceful way for people like us to pass on, they rather made us vegetables (that is, lobotomise us). Like really. How is that better than what we wanted to do? Sigh. This world. But UK has it bad. In my place of the world (not saying for safety reasons) if they ever knew I was on this site I would be institutionalised already. So I get you guys pain when it comes to countries over-reacting on people with our thoughts
 
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TooMuchHasHappened

Member
Apr 6, 2026
6
Hi - I'm also British and UK-based. How are the police finding out that you are attempting to buy this? I've been wanting to do so for some time, but if packages are being intercepted then that will of course cause problems.
In my opinion, either DSL's activities are being monitored by the authorities, or Customs and/or Royal Mail are alerting the police, the latter being the most probable explanation as I can't see the Ukrainian authorities being concerned about SN (it's not illegal), especially considering what's going on in their country. I'm sure they've got more important things to worry about than alerting U.K authorities to the fact that one of their citizens is sending SN to the U.K. But I could be wrong.
 
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Harrier

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Mar 31, 2026
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i'm really proud of you for standing your ground. they're "just helping" attitude is sickening considering the fact that they've probably violated your privacy and rights in every way possible already.
I think it might be easier to tell law enforcement no here in the U.S.

We have a "right to be silent" and a "right to privacy" that may not be present in other countries.

I am amazed about the stuff I am able to type on a forum here in the States, which gets people in UK put behind bars.
 
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fadedghost

Found SaSu after reading BBC & watching YouTube
Dec 10, 2025
415
I don't understand why they are asking where we order from. They obviously know that already or they wouldn't be at our doors🤦‍♀️
It's also possible they don't know and they just know the origination address, which is constant.

ie, somehow customs finds out 1 parcel has SN through routine inspection

then they flag anything coming from "100 Real Road, Realtown, Real County" and anything that comes from that address from then on gets the police to show up
 
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Harrier

Member
Mar 31, 2026
99
Of course, plenty of people don't say no to U.S. cops.

I have been asked to have my property searched 3 times.

Once, I gave permission. Nothing found

Another, I didn't. They backed off.

Another I said no. Nothing found, but I spent 8 hours in jail just because I challenged the search.

Just because we have constitutional rights doesn't mean that cops will respect them.
 
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insectontrial

Member
Jan 29, 2026
28
In my opinion, either DSL's activities are being monitored by the authorities, or Customs and/or Royal Mail are alerting the police, the latter being the most probable explanation as I can't see the Ukrainian authorities being concerned about SN (it's not illegal), especially considering what's going on in their country. I'm sure they've got more important things to worry about than alerting U.K authorities to the fact that one of their citizens is sending SN to the U.K. But I could be wrong.
The latter would not surprise me. Perhaps there could be some way within which DSL conceal the contents. I am familiar with companies which conceal the products they sell for privacy reasons (eg. the "toys for adults only" industry) so I wonder if this would not be too difficult. However I am afraid I do not know much about the Ukrainian legal system.
 
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