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lovelulu

lovelulu

even the iron still fears the rot.
Jan 3, 2026
104
it seems like I keep running into dead ends with my ctb. I was going to jump, but now im unsure due to the height. I was going to overdose, but there's no pills I could successfully overdose on. I cant get access to a firearm either. Please, I beg, someone help me find a way. I'm really desperate.
 
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Fadenself00

Student
Sep 21, 2025
143
We can't tell you what to do/which method to use. All we can do is point you to resources..

(Quick question though - I've skimmed your posts, and you said you have pretty severe mood swings - are you on any meds right now? They can have these severe mood side effects, and those are hard to tell apart from illness symptoms)
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,654
I understand, I just wish to be free from this torturous existence as well, the fact that there isn't the option to just peacefully cease existing is such terrible cruelty to me, I hope you find peace.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Visionary
May 10, 2025
2,983
however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering 🫂:heart:
 
fightclub17

fightclub17

❤︎
Mar 3, 2026
128
Please do not jump - you could end up with lifelong injuries/disabilities. Also pills could damage your organs. Firearms could leave a crater in your face.
 

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